Tuesday, November 30, 2004

I miss Japan!

I miss Japan!! Those days were the BEST BEST BEST days of my life!!! AHH!!! I wanna turn back time. and relive those 10 days over and over again!! Too bad.. Sometimes I kinda hoped I spend less time wid marg alone and spend more time wid the whole gang.. oh well.. its over.. I shouldnt regret.. anyway, im posting some pictures..


D' sister of my host


Group pic in yukata's!


SuYan n' NiZzz


UniVerSaL StUdIoS..

Saturday, November 13, 2004

damn! 2 kilos more!

haiz.. juz came back from bali not too long ago... I put on 2 KILOS!!.. from 75 to 80 now.. how am I suppose to go to da prom wid su now? haha.. haiz.. anyway, its past midnight, mayb I'll continue wid this blog tmr..

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

deepest harboured feelings

I'm not sure what i'm feeling these days..The onli thing which is different is that life is now 10 fold worse than last year.. anywayz...

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Deep feelings are haboured within me,
Unknown to any outside knowledge,
I feel nothin but the silent pain,
I'm reliving my past again,
What promises I made to myself,
is now broken n' shattered,
What principles I swore to keep,
is now too, faded and ignored,
Am I not walking my path to doom?
Am I not drowning my own soul?
with sorrow, sadness and loneliness as before,
I am again, walking a dark path,
with no certain fate,
I am walking to my certain doom.


tuesday nitemares

its so goddam boring in school.. Not a single came in today!!! arrh!!! got back some of my marks, all the 3 science subjects, i got a BIG C, which is 50++... dam.. although its much better than most of my other classmates, I know my parents will make my hellish life even more hell-like.. They wont be satisfied with anything but 100%!!! arrrrGHHH!!!! faddup betul.. haiz.. gotta go now..
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Life is like an empty shell,
Nothing inside, nothing's worth,
Life itself has lost its gleam,
I myself has lost my grip in life,
Whatever I do is never good enough,
Everything else that I do is always wrong,
What else should I ever do now..

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

monday boreness

I couldnt believe how bored I was in class.. I thought the last week of school wud be more interesting than this.. For many of us, this week is the last week of school.. Delta is still in genting, which adds to the boredom, along with yuling, kelvin, ajay, jian.. that xplains the reli dull feeling in 4 beta.. Oh yeah.. the school mags have arrived!! not that nice this year.. lotza misprintings and stuff.. Could have been better.. haizz.. i'm so bored n' lonely, life has lost its gleam.. haizzz!!

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FIRST LOVE- UTADA HIKARU
~JAPANESE VERSION~
Saigo no kisu wa
Tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni iru n' darou
Dare wo omotte 'ru n' darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki-dasou to shite 'ru
Wasuretaku nai koto bakari

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Watashi wa kitto naite 'ru
Anata wo omotte 'ru n' darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
You are always gonna be my love
Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever...

~ENGLISH VERSION~
The last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

Tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?
You are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

The paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

Tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

You will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song
You are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

Monday, November 01, 2004

Dark ages

Like the 'zaman jahiliah' of Islam last time, like da dark ages of europe before, guess now is my 'dark times'.. haizz... feel so.. lost.. like I dun belong anywhere.. Anwayz... da prom is comin!! arrr shoot.. gotta get da tickets by this week.. dun have that much of cash tagging around wid me everywhere.. Guess I gotta loan from my parents.. ahh gtg!! tmr got school....