Fed up. Roland had yet to do somethin with the P.A system and I had gotten fed up with him also.. I just wrote to Chew, directly, and I'm sure he would do something bout it.. Should he not, i'd write to Hanif.. tell him how irresponsible some ppl can be.. Are we not eligible for a proper P.A system? Besides, is this not a multi-million dollar school? How hard can it be to get a technician in??
Sheesh!!
Anyway, I missed my chance to become librarian.. I wasn't even called so I suspect the P.A system had to do with it.. I mean, the librarians had been elected and I didn't know nutz about it.. Yes I'd given my name.. I don't think I'd ask again though...
Beta forum revival is not that good but its betta than before.. At least we have constant posts.. and the bulk emailing system works.. I emailed to all the members about the revival and also the movie.. Speaking of the movie, many ppl have not given their ideas to the movie.. I don't think this movie should be made into a insulting movie revolving around jian and jona.. But if gene and the rest insist, then its up to u.. this is a graduation day video though..
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To say I don't miss you wud be the biggest lie I'd ever make. From the corner of my eye, I admired you, everything about u.. But I'd messed up.. There ain't another chance, isin't it? We aren't friends, or pet bro and sis anymore, right? The look in your eyes say all.. I can feel it anyway.. so uneasy... forget it..
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Thursday, March 24, 2005
Reviving the forum of the betarianz
Another week has passed.. Yesterday was certainly nize.. Barely did anything for Physics, probably cuz Mr. Wong is as tired, stuffy, and hot as us in the classroom since there was a blackout.. Sheesh.. of all times, just after our sports practice.. The class was a smelly tin of sweat..
The day became nizer after we kinda skipped the debate in the auditorium hall.. and went for a 2 hours P.E.. chun lehh.. almost got caught by the black man though.. But, got blasted like crazy from Mrs Chandra today cuz she got into trouble.. Sorry lo..
Tomorrow is a holiday.. It's nize to have a 4-day week.. Feels less stress.. Anyway, besides homework, I've only been working on one thing only.. that is to revive the beta forum.. which doesn't seem to be going that well.. even changes I made to the forum layout doesn't seem to be working.. sheesh...
oh yeah.. Attention to all Beta Students!! Beta movie planning has kicked into action.. Plz log into the forum to give ur ideas, suggestions, plans, or anything else.. Members of the movie commitee is all IT students.. If u wanna help out, ur more then welcome to..Current leader of the movie would be Jonathan.
http://www.s7.invisionfree.com/4_betarians
This is a movie of all of us.. Be sure to play ur part in giving ideas.. Plzz give sensible and possible ones la.. Thanks lotzz!!
To be honest, I feel a bit lonely, for her I guess..Whenever I do something, I can't help myself, but always think.. What would happen if she was here..? What would she say..? Ah... I need to get over her.. but I can't.. its not that simple.. *sigh* I have another problem besides that.. dunno what had gotten into me... seriously...
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The day became nizer after we kinda skipped the debate in the auditorium hall.. and went for a 2 hours P.E.. chun lehh.. almost got caught by the black man though.. But, got blasted like crazy from Mrs Chandra today cuz she got into trouble.. Sorry lo..
Tomorrow is a holiday.. It's nize to have a 4-day week.. Feels less stress.. Anyway, besides homework, I've only been working on one thing only.. that is to revive the beta forum.. which doesn't seem to be going that well.. even changes I made to the forum layout doesn't seem to be working.. sheesh...
oh yeah.. Attention to all Beta Students!! Beta movie planning has kicked into action.. Plz log into the forum to give ur ideas, suggestions, plans, or anything else.. Members of the movie commitee is all IT students.. If u wanna help out, ur more then welcome to..Current leader of the movie would be Jonathan.
http://www.s7.invisionfree.com/4_betarians
This is a movie of all of us.. Be sure to play ur part in giving ideas.. Plzz give sensible and possible ones la.. Thanks lotzz!!
To be honest, I feel a bit lonely, for her I guess..Whenever I do something, I can't help myself, but always think.. What would happen if she was here..? What would she say..? Ah... I need to get over her.. but I can't.. its not that simple.. *sigh* I have another problem besides that.. dunno what had gotten into me... seriously...
-Lawy3rz
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Monday, March 21, 2005
Feeling blues
Heck, I'm fatter than before.. AhH!! DuN believe 5 simple buffets can make u so fat... FAT FAT FAT... shoot.. gonna triple my exercise (which is scarce in the first place) and cut down on food.. Shoot man.. Muz be the Pangkor trip, where I did nothing but eat, sleep, lay around.. Played pool and table tennis there also.. Beach waves, the cool breeze.. it was definately a relaxing hols, but sadly it made me fatter too..
Got back some results of the first monthly test, definately better than last year's results anytime.. but I dun wanna get too confident.. Gonna study like mad for the mid year... its for the forecast..
A good friend of mine asked me in class today.. still thinking of her? I was.. He told me why would I think of her since she'll probably never think of me.. I didn't deny it.. but I couldn't answer it anyway..
Not quite sure wat to blog anymore these days, I guess this is the end of this post.. Signing off, Lawy3rz
Got back some results of the first monthly test, definately better than last year's results anytime.. but I dun wanna get too confident.. Gonna study like mad for the mid year... its for the forecast..
A good friend of mine asked me in class today.. still thinking of her? I was.. He told me why would I think of her since she'll probably never think of me.. I didn't deny it.. but I couldn't answer it anyway..
Not quite sure wat to blog anymore these days, I guess this is the end of this post.. Signing off, Lawy3rz
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
Pangkor, had a nize time
I'm back from PangkoR!! Dun ask me why I went there, cuz I don't know.. but it was nize anyhow.. It was a total R&R holiday, doing nothing but sleep, eat, and relax.. Did practically nothing but relax around..
I didn't know just sitting around wud be so relaxful.. lying by the beach at night, at sunset.. the breeze was cooling and strong.. the hotel itself was nize.. it was the Pangkor island beach resort.. or formerly known as the Pan Pacific Beach resort.. Played pool and table tennis there wid my dad and bro there as well.. it was definately fun and relaxing..
I'll add on to this post later.. dun feel like bloggin much rite now..
Pangkor sky..
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I didn't know just sitting around wud be so relaxful.. lying by the beach at night, at sunset.. the breeze was cooling and strong.. the hotel itself was nize.. it was the Pangkor island beach resort.. or formerly known as the Pan Pacific Beach resort.. Played pool and table tennis there wid my dad and bro there as well.. it was definately fun and relaxing..
I'll add on to this post later.. dun feel like bloggin much rite now..
Pangkor sky..
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Monday, March 14, 2005
The last wish of my heart..
Monday, first felt day of the school hols.. Woke up at 8, and had a-b-s-o-l-u-t-e-l-y nothing to do till I remembered; homework.. sobs.. 4 essays, 2 summaries, physics paper, BM set paper..
Anyway, this post isin't bout homework.. its all bout a gurl.. yeaa yeaaa.. its me.. i'm making such a big deal out of nothing, i know i know.. and I'm also draggin this issue on and on.. I think.. that this will be the last of such a post.. so plzz bear with the last one..
...Form 3 was the most memorable and fun year of my schooling life. PMR pressure had no effect in form 3.. and I would like to thank everyone in form 3 Alpha 2003 who made a wonderful year for all of us. Thank you.. Form 3 was also the year I first felt for you..
...In Japan, I couldn't be with you, even as a friend or a pet bro. Japan still turned out to be the greatest time of my life, just being with all my friends, and my ex.. The last night, we went out at 2 am to go buy makan pulak.. Nize supper.. =) thanks.. and thanks for the invitation to stay the nite though I didn't.. 5 ppl in a room meh? supposed to be 2 onli.. =)
... I knew on the prom night, that when I held you hand, it'd could be either the first, or the first and last.. Your hand that night was cold.. We walked everywhere, and I kept your hands close to mine.. I wanted the feeling to last forever..
That was 3 months ago.. and probably the last time I had a proper conversation with you.. I know you have your own life now, and that I'm not going to be a part of it. It just occurred to me that if we're now in the same school, in neighbouring classes meter's apart, and we don't utter a single word to each other, then after SPM when we go our own ways, I'd probably never see you or talk to you again.. right?
I loved the feeling of holding your hand.. Before I asked you, I hoped very hard that I'd be able to do that again.. Nothing can be done, what said is said, what felt is felt.. I've asked you twice already, and I don't want to do this for the third time..
I, however, have one last wish of my heart.. I wish that I will have the chance and priviledge to dance with you for the last time.. before we leave school, and I probably never see you again.. I want to have a last dance with the person who I had my first dance with.. Its my heart's wish and I know wishes usually don't come true.. This is not a wish that can be acheived through any amount of hard work.. Its the last wish of my heart..
This ends here.. Take care gurl, in whatever you do, you have my best wishes.. Take care..
Anyway, this post isin't bout homework.. its all bout a gurl.. yeaa yeaaa.. its me.. i'm making such a big deal out of nothing, i know i know.. and I'm also draggin this issue on and on.. I think.. that this will be the last of such a post.. so plzz bear with the last one..
...Form 3 was the most memorable and fun year of my schooling life. PMR pressure had no effect in form 3.. and I would like to thank everyone in form 3 Alpha 2003 who made a wonderful year for all of us. Thank you.. Form 3 was also the year I first felt for you..
...In Japan, I couldn't be with you, even as a friend or a pet bro. Japan still turned out to be the greatest time of my life, just being with all my friends, and my ex.. The last night, we went out at 2 am to go buy makan pulak.. Nize supper.. =) thanks.. and thanks for the invitation to stay the nite though I didn't.. 5 ppl in a room meh? supposed to be 2 onli.. =)
... I knew on the prom night, that when I held you hand, it'd could be either the first, or the first and last.. Your hand that night was cold.. We walked everywhere, and I kept your hands close to mine.. I wanted the feeling to last forever..
That was 3 months ago.. and probably the last time I had a proper conversation with you.. I know you have your own life now, and that I'm not going to be a part of it. It just occurred to me that if we're now in the same school, in neighbouring classes meter's apart, and we don't utter a single word to each other, then after SPM when we go our own ways, I'd probably never see you or talk to you again.. right?
I loved the feeling of holding your hand.. Before I asked you, I hoped very hard that I'd be able to do that again.. Nothing can be done, what said is said, what felt is felt.. I've asked you twice already, and I don't want to do this for the third time..
I, however, have one last wish of my heart.. I wish that I will have the chance and priviledge to dance with you for the last time.. before we leave school, and I probably never see you again.. I want to have a last dance with the person who I had my first dance with.. Its my heart's wish and I know wishes usually don't come true.. This is not a wish that can be acheived through any amount of hard work.. Its the last wish of my heart..
This ends here.. Take care gurl, in whatever you do, you have my best wishes.. Take care..
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
Uneasy silence in the air..
Sunday once more.. and this sunday was different than other Sundays.. For starters, my family and I drove down to Seremban, than to Port Dickson with some of my mom's good friends.. Had seafood for lunch, and then to the camp.. actually a resort in PD where my younger bro has a camp for 3 days 2 nights..
Then that's where it all began.. We spent a couple of hours there.. before we left.. It's his first time going out on his own, and though he has some friends over there (my mom's friends daughters who he knows), we're still quite worried bout him.. In the car, at home, it started to feel very quiet without him.. and yeah... despite we have our quarrels, I kinda miss him.. someone to bug.. ;) Wonder how's he doing at the camp now.. It's only been around 10 hours.. my mom miss him the most.. She's very close to him..
Anyway, we drove around so much, till my mom and I got carsick and got a little dizzy.. Though I'm fine now, my mom still says she's a bit dizzy.. and I'm a little worried.. Dizzy.. after so long.. It could mean a lot of things.. like.. low blood pressure.. low red blood cell count.. or just me being paranoid.. anyway, me and my dad told her to see a doc if she's still dizzy tomorrow..
As for me, tomorrow I'd probably be at home alone, other than my house minister (my maid, I have high respects for her.. she's been working for us for 12 years already..) And I think I'll really start my homework tomorrow.. Got so so so much work!!! ahh..
Wednesday going Pangkor.. Mom says that we're not going overseas (namely Europe, Spain) cuz of my SPM, and I told her straight forward, I don't think 2 weeks in Europe would disturb my studies at all.. she wouldn't listen.. haiiz... Anyway, I just hope she's feeling better by tomorrow..
Right here I'm blogging, missing my bro and also missing my pet sis.. listening to some really nize piano pieces on my com.. Don't know how someone can stand being lonely.. Seriously I've gotten damn weak.. *sigh* Nothing I can do now.. Hope for the best.
Lawy3rz,
signing off
Then that's where it all began.. We spent a couple of hours there.. before we left.. It's his first time going out on his own, and though he has some friends over there (my mom's friends daughters who he knows), we're still quite worried bout him.. In the car, at home, it started to feel very quiet without him.. and yeah... despite we have our quarrels, I kinda miss him.. someone to bug.. ;) Wonder how's he doing at the camp now.. It's only been around 10 hours.. my mom miss him the most.. She's very close to him..
Anyway, we drove around so much, till my mom and I got carsick and got a little dizzy.. Though I'm fine now, my mom still says she's a bit dizzy.. and I'm a little worried.. Dizzy.. after so long.. It could mean a lot of things.. like.. low blood pressure.. low red blood cell count.. or just me being paranoid.. anyway, me and my dad told her to see a doc if she's still dizzy tomorrow..
As for me, tomorrow I'd probably be at home alone, other than my house minister (my maid, I have high respects for her.. she's been working for us for 12 years already..) And I think I'll really start my homework tomorrow.. Got so so so much work!!! ahh..
Wednesday going Pangkor.. Mom says that we're not going overseas (namely Europe, Spain) cuz of my SPM, and I told her straight forward, I don't think 2 weeks in Europe would disturb my studies at all.. she wouldn't listen.. haiiz... Anyway, I just hope she's feeling better by tomorrow..
Right here I'm blogging, missing my bro and also missing my pet sis.. listening to some really nize piano pieces on my com.. Don't know how someone can stand being lonely.. Seriously I've gotten damn weak.. *sigh* Nothing I can do now.. Hope for the best.
Lawy3rz,
signing off
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Thursday, March 10, 2005
A glance back, a teardrop..
I used Realplayer to do a full sweep of my PC for all video files.. and what came up really surprised me..Videos I never knew I have ever took was before me.. A long list of videos that were deeply hidden in my computer for ages.. For all of those sick minded fellas, I wanna clarify that these are NOT sick videos.. They're videos of my past, form 3 and form 4.. and some others..
There's this video on the last few days of form 3, where Zhiyi, Porhai, Me, Kevin and Suyan were playin mahjong in class.. it was a Monday, judging we were all wearing the white shirt.. Then there was one in form 4.. Miss G's period.. the entire class was in the state of chaos.. It really made me smile.. Everyone looked so happy.. We were chattin, shouting away, and the unmistakably voice of Ashminder.. Times that had passed.. Times that will never come back; only memories.. I have always took them for granted, until the time u know your happy times are numbered..
I hope for other not to repeat my mistake.. If you're not, then that's fine.. but for many of us, which includes me, we, or rather I took so many things for granted.. But I want to change.. I want to treasure every second of my life from now on.. Because Life is short, and precious, and so are the times when you look back and smile.. when you look at yourself laughing and smiling away.. Enjoy it, treasure it, because it will never last.. We're in our last year of our schooling days.. We're going to split and go our own ways.. I'll treasure every moment I have left!!
I'm going to be a changed person.. I'm not going to abandon my studies to treasure time, and yet I am not going to let time pass without being treasured! The pictures I have taken years past have taught me a valuable lesson in life.. It taught me how to appreciate the better times..
For now, I will put a smile on my face, and appreciate seconds that passes..
I admit, though I do feel a bit lonely sometimes, though I long very much for Sylvan, though her smiles in pictures can bring tearsdrops.. I should stand still, I should just accept it.. and start walking away.. Never have I had someone or something that happened had such a big impact on my life.. I won't show it, I will never show it.. but I will treasure the times we had together as friends and classmate.. Not that we aren't friends now.. but I know, that I'm just a distant friend now, that we'll probably never exchange more than 10 words in a year.. Know that I really loved you.. that's all..
Lawy3rz ,
signing off..
There's this video on the last few days of form 3, where Zhiyi, Porhai, Me, Kevin and Suyan were playin mahjong in class.. it was a Monday, judging we were all wearing the white shirt.. Then there was one in form 4.. Miss G's period.. the entire class was in the state of chaos.. It really made me smile.. Everyone looked so happy.. We were chattin, shouting away, and the unmistakably voice of Ashminder.. Times that had passed.. Times that will never come back; only memories.. I have always took them for granted, until the time u know your happy times are numbered..
I hope for other not to repeat my mistake.. If you're not, then that's fine.. but for many of us, which includes me, we, or rather I took so many things for granted.. But I want to change.. I want to treasure every second of my life from now on.. Because Life is short, and precious, and so are the times when you look back and smile.. when you look at yourself laughing and smiling away.. Enjoy it, treasure it, because it will never last.. We're in our last year of our schooling days.. We're going to split and go our own ways.. I'll treasure every moment I have left!!
I'm going to be a changed person.. I'm not going to abandon my studies to treasure time, and yet I am not going to let time pass without being treasured! The pictures I have taken years past have taught me a valuable lesson in life.. It taught me how to appreciate the better times..
For now, I will put a smile on my face, and appreciate seconds that passes..
I admit, though I do feel a bit lonely sometimes, though I long very much for Sylvan, though her smiles in pictures can bring tearsdrops.. I should stand still, I should just accept it.. and start walking away.. Never have I had someone or something that happened had such a big impact on my life.. I won't show it, I will never show it.. but I will treasure the times we had together as friends and classmate.. Not that we aren't friends now.. but I know, that I'm just a distant friend now, that we'll probably never exchange more than 10 words in a year.. Know that I really loved you.. that's all..
Lawy3rz ,
signing off..
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Exams? huh? what's that?
Yeaa.. sbeesh.. I will always hate exams, no matter what exam is it.. Today's add maths went fine, just for one really STUPID STUPID STUPID careless mistake.. Phyics was fine, and of all things.. english.. for the first time in my life, english saark.. English has never sarked... *sark=suck, from yoke keat's vocabulary =p*
Life without feelings doesn't seem very complete.. Everyone's saying how this is our form 5, how we should do nothing but study till we pass SPM and hope that we're still sane.. I really want everyone to realize that SPM is not everything!! We must all learn to enjoy and still work at the same time.. If you feel for someone, go for it, because life will cease to exist as we know it after this year! Life is short, go for it, and feel no regrets.. We're not mindless drones to study all day!
Sometimes behind a mask, feelings are kept quietly.. Feelings which are not meant to reveal to the world.. empty.. sad.. faded hopes.. A small smile will always be lit on my face.. but deep in thoughts, feelings beg to differ.. Its not meant to be shown, only felt by the one harbouring them. I would never expect you to accept me, for who I am, but I have only hoped that a miracle would happen. Sometimes hope isin't enough.. But I know now, and I'm glad that I do..
OK i dunno what nonsense I just wrote.. I closed my eyes and just wrote whatever I felt like writing, so skip this part if you can't stand nonsense..
Anyway, honestly I've got nothing much to post right now.. and I have no idea why I'm blogging while I'm supposed to be studying.. If I decide to post more tomorrow, I'd add on to this post..
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Life without feelings doesn't seem very complete.. Everyone's saying how this is our form 5, how we should do nothing but study till we pass SPM and hope that we're still sane.. I really want everyone to realize that SPM is not everything!! We must all learn to enjoy and still work at the same time.. If you feel for someone, go for it, because life will cease to exist as we know it after this year! Life is short, go for it, and feel no regrets.. We're not mindless drones to study all day!
Sometimes behind a mask, feelings are kept quietly.. Feelings which are not meant to reveal to the world.. empty.. sad.. faded hopes.. A small smile will always be lit on my face.. but deep in thoughts, feelings beg to differ.. Its not meant to be shown, only felt by the one harbouring them. I would never expect you to accept me, for who I am, but I have only hoped that a miracle would happen. Sometimes hope isin't enough.. But I know now, and I'm glad that I do..
OK i dunno what nonsense I just wrote.. I closed my eyes and just wrote whatever I felt like writing, so skip this part if you can't stand nonsense..
Anyway, honestly I've got nothing much to post right now.. and I have no idea why I'm blogging while I'm supposed to be studying.. If I decide to post more tomorrow, I'd add on to this post..
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Sunday, March 06, 2005
Feelings beyond words..
Its a Sunday and today's a really slow day.. I'm gonna be having exam tomorrow, and I'm not studyin.. Lets see.. IT exam tomorrow.. I havent touch the damn books!! gonna die.. seriously, didnt even flip a single page.. Can't blame me, its not like Chandra taught a single thing for the past 3 months.. *sigh* forget exams lar.. I'm just gonna take them, and be off terribly..
Besides that I've been feeling .. weird.. I can't really describe it, and I don't think I'm gonna try describing it here.. Probably many of you reading this blog think that I'm really seeking attention in school enough already.. Times that passed brings memories, time that will pass brings a future.. Sometimes I smile at the past we had, though not much, but in the end, I know there will be no future for a 'we'..
Signing off..
Lawy3rz
Besides that I've been feeling .. weird.. I can't really describe it, and I don't think I'm gonna try describing it here.. Probably many of you reading this blog think that I'm really seeking attention in school enough already.. Times that passed brings memories, time that will pass brings a future.. Sometimes I smile at the past we had, though not much, but in the end, I know there will be no future for a 'we'..
Signing off..
Lawy3rz
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
I lost myself.. again
*WARNING- This post contain nonsense, crap and shit. Leave now if you cannot stand such matter*
Ugh.. having a bit of a headache cuz of afternoon sickness.. Shouldn't have slept just now.. I must admit that this post would be much more vulgar and filled with hatred if I were to post this 2 hours ago.. Well I've lost control over my life. No its not cuz of Sylvan, but everything else..
At home, in school, within me.. Wherever I am.. Am I really such an ignorant bastard? I get blasted with scoldings, remarks, critism from my own parents.. All I could do is close my eyes, and gave a small smile to the path my life is heading.. Silent tears always fills my heart everytime.. To put it simply, my parents probably think and feel I'm such a shit son, and I have no more strength to argue with them.. If thats what they think I am.. then.. I'll leave it be..
My brother seem to have mastered the technique to backstab and frame people.. He knows how to go crying crocodile tears to our parents and ooh, they'll come with all mighty power to so-called 'protect and defend' him, since he's such a little angel.. and it repeats all over again.. You know wat.. I'm smiling.. ...
I must apologize for the crap today..
I should never have forgotten my principles.. I hate no one, but myself for this..
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Ugh.. having a bit of a headache cuz of afternoon sickness.. Shouldn't have slept just now.. I must admit that this post would be much more vulgar and filled with hatred if I were to post this 2 hours ago.. Well I've lost control over my life. No its not cuz of Sylvan, but everything else..
At home, in school, within me.. Wherever I am.. Am I really such an ignorant bastard? I get blasted with scoldings, remarks, critism from my own parents.. All I could do is close my eyes, and gave a small smile to the path my life is heading.. Silent tears always fills my heart everytime.. To put it simply, my parents probably think and feel I'm such a shit son, and I have no more strength to argue with them.. If thats what they think I am.. then.. I'll leave it be..
My brother seem to have mastered the technique to backstab and frame people.. He knows how to go crying crocodile tears to our parents and ooh, they'll come with all mighty power to so-called 'protect and defend' him, since he's such a little angel.. and it repeats all over again.. You know wat.. I'm smiling.. ...
I must apologize for the crap today..
I should never have forgotten my principles.. I hate no one, but myself for this..
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Friday, March 04, 2005
Silent tears, heartsfelt, and a silent sigh..
I did my best.. no regrets.. So, this is the end.. No matter what, I have no regrets.. I did what I should have done ages past. I'm not going into detail about this. and also I don't really feel like talking bout this right now.. so thanks for ur understanding..
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Wednesday, March 02, 2005
-A suicidal problem without a solution-
No, I'm not suicidal. I'm not about to kill myself over her. The title is just in contrast with what jian and jonni boi posted at my tagboard.. Shesssh.. Well its a very very bad situation, and today was NOT a good day..
Kiwi will be coming after me for ponteng blue house marchpast today. I went to Bm tuition today with intention to end this situation, but ended up much worst.. I'm in the middle between confessing, and not confessing. My mind isin't set, the will is great but the strength isin't there.. So? I've probably called her house a hundred times today, every time with nothing to say.. sheessh.. Somemore, her moms picks up the phone every time..
This has GOT to end!! I just called her again, her mom picked up, definately sounding annoyed that I've disturbed her TV show.. Sylvan as well, she's in the same room as her mom watching TV, and I'm supposed to tell her over the phone and while her mom's behind her? no way..
God, I hope this situation end soon.. soon..
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Kiwi will be coming after me for ponteng blue house marchpast today. I went to Bm tuition today with intention to end this situation, but ended up much worst.. I'm in the middle between confessing, and not confessing. My mind isin't set, the will is great but the strength isin't there.. So? I've probably called her house a hundred times today, every time with nothing to say.. sheessh.. Somemore, her moms picks up the phone every time..
This has GOT to end!! I just called her again, her mom picked up, definately sounding annoyed that I've disturbed her TV show.. Sylvan as well, she's in the same room as her mom watching TV, and I'm supposed to tell her over the phone and while her mom's behind her? no way..
God, I hope this situation end soon.. soon..
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If you are using Internet Explorer, and if you are wondering why there's a blank space on top of my blog, that's because for some unknown, weird, and unexplainable reason, Internet Explorer is not able to view the head banner I place on top there. My suggestion? get mozilla firefox as your browser and ditch IE!!! www.mozilla.com .I'm sure you won't regret it.. =)
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