Another damn week.. how long more???!! reli frustrated here.. How many weeks have passed?? and when I finally get to buy it, oh the shopkeepers comes along and say, oopz, iPod shuffle sold out.. I could almost strangle him there and then.. but oh well, knowing very well i'll go to jail for that, I kept cool... geram laa..GERAM~ !!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

ahhh.. that felt much better.. released my geram-ness.. There goes my plans to buy before august.. oh wth la.. not like i can do anythin but wait another week.. wait wait wait.. Enough of Ipod shuffle at the moment la.. even though I had a great time releasing my geram.. the more i talk about it, the more frustrated i get..

Everytime i get into a car, i kinda feel a sense of disappointment.. those of you who had been following my blog progress will probably noticed that one post went off this blog not too long ago.. and this, has everything to do with that.. another day, some other day, one of these days, Some time soon, next time, when I'm free, some day later.. I've heard it all.. and I'm not that dumb to persue it anymore..

Basically its false hope, fake promises and nothing but all talk.. the real question is, when is it? or rather.. is there really a it? I keep quiet, and do nothing.. I keep quiet and try hard to forget those words.. I keep quiet and.. hope those words come true.. nothin else..

Saw fantastic 4 today, quite a nize show.. but reli, I've realize.. that SPM is 3 months away, and all right.. I'm freaking already.. Anyway, I am gonna swear that I will study real hard for the next 3-4 months until the very last day of SPM from tomorrow onwards, no more games for me until then, no more anime for me either.. This will be a principle for me and I don't break principles for any circumstances..

However, games and anime dun include social life.. oh, my social life isin't hanging out at malls, parties, cybercafe and all those stuff other ppl mite do.. my social life has me, me and me inside it onli.. it includes the person i mite like, the things I like to do, stuff like that.. I'm still going to have this or I'll go mental before SPM..

Kelli.. She's kinda a mysterious person to me.. for I know nothing about her, even after spending years in school together before.. before.. I think I know alot about her, but I acutally don't.. and our interest dun seem to match a bit also.. its a terrible match.. and anyone I've told this about said my taste sucks.. and I admit it kinda does.. but.. thats who I am..

This has been a long post, and I've got a TV show coming up, so..

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Lawy3rz

Add-post, its been 4 hours since the post on top.. I cant sleep.. I'm reli pissed.. frusfrated, angry, disappointed, all over something so small.. I keep telling myself that

Password compromised..

I hate password compromisations.. but still, there was nothing i could do.. the DUMB gsc website didn't cover the password field with asterisks with I had to register a new account to book online tickets... thus, my dad who was sitting next to me had a great view of it.. so, I changed all my passwords, from blogger, to email account, to msn... everything.. haha.. hope that will stay from now.. i liked my old password, and I havent gotten bored of it yet.. but still, security comes first..

Monthly test has just finished two days ago.. and tomorrow will be the last day of the week.. or more accurately, the last day of July.. and I want to get my Ipod and I will do my very best to get it.. My mind is set, my reseached completed..

Flooble chatterbox , both mine and yoke keats have been corrupted in their database fall... so forgive the inconvenience and start filling it back up again ar..

Nothin much to add here for the time being, and from request, here are more emma watson pics i found on the net, and for those.. *hint hint chia chee* hu dun know this girl, she's hermione from harry potter movie..

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Lawy3rz

yar..

been 2 days of miserably exams since I last blogged.. nothing reli to talk about the exams.. sit in class quietly writing a bunch of alphabets on a piece of paper that will determine your very future..

Anyway, I wanna thank Mrs Shanta here 4 being such a kind soul~ =) serious! she gave me her papers cuz there wasn't any more left for me.. hehe.. thanks lotz Mrs Shanta!

Life's not exactly stormy, but it ain't a calm sea either.. its just.. like turbulence on planes... rough at times, smooth otherwise.. and it ain't my fault also that i'm so damn lost.. Lost lost lost!! ahh wat the heck..

I kinda realize that I've been kinda finding Kelli more often.. aiH.. hate it ler.. Life's a maze, life's a sea.. doing its very best to get you lost and unless u know your way, and your light to show the way, u'd be lost.. Sylvan.. we're strangers, simply that.. and above all, I should get over her already.. strangers.. wats next?

oh well, there reli aint much to blog.. here's more pics of emma watson..

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Lawy3rz

-_-"

Oh, how great.. the first day of exams.. BM had the stupid (6marks) peribahasa and IT.. nvm.. then english had that line from the litreature which I thought Juana was the person who said that line.. okay fine.. todays exam isin't that bad but hell it felt terrible and horrible..and to top it all, fcking Nathan said my shoes weren't as black as him so it was 'wrong'.. fcuk u.. hope u burn in hell.. was late for english exam cuz of u.. but in the end i finished early and went to sleep anyway.. hahaa..

My head hurts and my eyes ache, i've finished 4 chaps of sej in a few hours and now i'm actualli doing add maths.. but I'd thought I'd get a rest just a short while.. Blog a bit, clear out my head abit.. And I'm decided whether I should stay up late studying, or sleep early.. ahh, decide later ahh..

Anyway, check this out, a pic from the 4th movie of Harry Potter, Goblet of fire, Hermione (emma watson) at the Yule Ball.. kawaii leh.. cant wait..

Note before going on : Kelli is not Kelly (take note Kelly).. This Kelli is rather a nickname, just like Sylvan.. and also, dun la simply make conclusions on who Kelli is..

I know, that I'm rather plump =(, dumb, and more or less ugly.. but I don't reli care.. ^_^ Liking someone is very much different than having that someone liking you back.. Someone to remember of, when your down, is rather important.. honestly, I don't seek love that desperately.. i'm not lovesick, I just want to have someone important, and it doesnt matter if the other person feels the same..

Kelli huh.. okay fine.. I can't think of another nick to name a person.. i dun like to use exact real names here.. Practically, Sylvan and I are more or less strangers already by now.. I dont feel like we've known each other before.. wherelse Kelli isint reli an approachable person.. Attractive maybe, but nothing else other than that.. aikz.. I shouldn't even be considering her.. Feelings felt cant be blogged reli.. but.. oh nvm.. forget it..

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Ipod shuffle 2?

guess not today.. Aikz, i cant say I wasn't disappointed, but I tried to reli hide it and make it sound reli casual though I reli reli wanted it.. But i know I shouldn't rush it.. but then again I've been waiting months and doing my research on it.. In any case, plan A has failed.. Plan A was to bank on my dad for the promised 200 bucks subsidies, and I can pay the balance back by installment..

Plan B, now, is to withdraw each cent I have from the bank and spend on the Ipod shuffle in cash.. My dateline hasn't change.. Its still by August.. I don't believe that the price will drop anymore after the recent drop.. Though my dad expresses his support on this matter, i don't reli think he feels comfortable spending more than half a thousand bucks just like that.. Our way of spending, our piorities, our way of luxuries, they're all different..

guess there's nothing I can do now but wait for another week..
another week.. week after week after week I seem to wait and wait..

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Ipod shuffle?

Tomorrow's another sunday, and I hope hope hope that I get to buy Ipod shuffle tomorrow.. anyway theres not much point hoping so much, cuz if circumstances turn out for the worse, then I'd just be disappointed.. so.. hehe.. keep my fingers crossed while not hoping too much..

I didn't do much today, except for revising for the exams next week.. seriously damn leceh to have exams.. So i dun have much to blog today either.. One of these days I might write a full biography on myself to date.. when I mean full, it means full, everything.. things everyone else might and might not know.. But that day I see, mite not be anytime soon..

I can't explain feelings in words.. thats me.. find one who can and I'll salute him.. Love isin't a matter of sweet words and expensive gifts *nudge nudge that someone*.. I've realize many things as I live my life.. though, I will always know that my life will never be sweet as long you're not in it..

Just finished watching two episodes of balatica galatica while I'm supposed to be studying.. but my eyes are all tired and I've been studyin more or less the entire day.. sO i thought I'd use a break.. damn the exams..

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True feelings never told are true feelings really felt by the heart..

caked.. Woof wOoF!

Betas doggie turning 17.. Caked him, pepsi twisted him, creamed him.. name it and this is the result..

actualli he's birthday was on tuesday.. but stuff wasn't ready.. so we moved it today.. and oh.. those few people who still owe for the cake, plz pay up!

I don't think i'm going reli into detaiL, as many of you probably knew wat happened already.. so its just pics.. and later, I'll introduce u to a new blogger in the block..

While waiting for my pics to be uploaded, guess I should say a few words.. Exam's next week and though I'm doing a bit of studying, I'm most likely gonna die.. In that case, I will study till death, never give up till the last second~! haha... so dead..
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My heart still dwells from my past,
unsure of anything,
one which does not belong to anyone,
while my thoughts are not one,
thus myself is not me.

This path I've walked,
I've walked many times,
what's left of it,
what's left of my path,
is what's left of my heart.

Time and time again,
defying time and reason,
the will, wishes, whispers of the soul,
darkness are all around, and light is scarce,
That is me, and my soul,
just what's left of them without you.

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haha.. nvm, I felt bored, and just typed watever came to my mind.. btw, there's a new blogger.. his name is.. da master NOOB.. Yoke Keat.. His link shud be in my sidebar.. 'support' him yar~

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Harry potter and the half blood prince

I just finished harry potter and the half blood prince.. well overall i can say its not too bad, with much more mushy romance than the previous books.. and death.. the last book ended with the death of sirus, and now.. its dumbledore.. and an interesting twist how harry and ginny got together.. oh well, i'm not going to give a boring long reivew on the book.. but I enjoyed reading the book..

and oh, btw, take a look at this

What'dya think? Katie Leung, as Cho Chang..

Anyhow, I've been feeling kinda.. erm.. stabbed.. every night before I sleep.. its a feeling that I cant reli describe.. but.. I think its something to do with my past.. i don't think i've settled my past, honestly speaking.. This is reli a delicate matter which I wanna blog out.. alone.. the nights I spend thinking for hours, the nights I spend hoping forever..

Nothing else to blog I suppose.. since its only been two days since my previous posts..

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-a hearts wish will always just be a hearts wish, for you..

Bon Odori, 16th July 2005, one of my best memories in secondary school..

Note: the Pics are not in order and not related exactly to the post but rather random order.

Today,

My leg hurts hurts and hurts but it hurts for a great cause.. I had one of my best times in my life tonight, and a memorable night that I can never forget, ever.. It was soooo FUN!! and plenty of cute gals too.. =p ^_^ hehe.. jkjk..

Let see, in the morning, i went to the EST workshop, and found out thing that I never knew could actualli fail me in the exaM.. I am thankful that I went for the workshop..Nothing much to tell about the workshop.. after the workshop, i had lunch with boon, chew, and kok.. some mamak store..

Then took a taxi back cuz Malaysian's bus system seem to suck more than ever now.. wait and wait and wait but the bus never seem to come.. stayed home from 1~4 pm.. didn't do much theN..

But then, 4 o clock came, and I needed to get prepared.. this is where the stupid part comes.. I rushed cuz I forgot to collect clothes in and I wanted a snack.. rush rush rush, then I finally get out to wait for a bus.. Wait wait wait, in the end took a taxi to school.. BUT, then the taxi said he'll onli drop me off a metropoliton after I got in.. so fine, I dropped off at Metropolitan and started walkng to school..Walk walk walk then reached back gate.. of all things, it was LockED! so i had to take a bigger round to walk to the front gate.. I was late, for sure.. but when I finally got there.. there was less than 5 people.. sheesh.. BUT anyway, I got there early and that was better than late..

Took a small miserably bus to the stadium.. every other school bus we saw as huge and airconed.. haha.. made fun of the bus, and I think the lady driver never want to take us again..

Plenty of gals there was wearing kimonos/yukatas (not sure which term to use).. more gals than guys, definately.. kawaii~! hehe.. then got gathered, kinda like sheeps.. then got directed to the hall inside the stadium.. given shirts (sadly not Yukata *sob sob*) and new fans.. Observed around and we saw girls in cosplay, kimonos/yukatas, dresses, japanese fashions, all sorts.. the guys were more or less plain, few in yukata's.. nth much for guys.. =D

Then we moved to the center of the field where we were like celebrities.. countless cameras were at us when we posed for the cameras.. CHUN.. I wan one of those pics also~! sadly I didn't bring camera cuz I scared stolen or rosak... But I did take one pic on my phone which turned out horrible.. sori ya guyz/gals.. no pics until I try to collect them from other people..

Then began all the dancing ler.. 4 dances, two times each round, and there's three rounds.. ahh.. tired, tired, tired but fun fun fun.. erm.. the names of the 4 dances were..
1-Dai Tokyo Ondo
2- Hanagasa Ondo
3-Tankobushi
4-Ohisama Ondo

and my favourite was the last one..=p

p.s - as you can see.. the line is very straight.. isin't it?

well during the breaks, I went out and cari makan.. hungry ler.. by that time was adi 8pm.. find any shop which I can actualli get to the front counter without being squished, i bought watever they sold.. in the end, I resulted with a california role and a 8 bucks sushi box whicH i dun even know wat izzit.. but it was fine.. =p then I bumped into Kit Yeng, my pet sis punya fren which I know from some time back.. yor.. she was wearing a full yukata.. chun also ler..

then 2nd round started, the same process repeated itself.. then I went out to makan again.. this time I bought somethin I knew.. yakisoba.. kinda okay onli.. I've definately tasted better ones..

then third round started, which onli went one time for each dance.. by that time it was already 9.30.. the last performance was the drum performance.. and thats it... the thing was closed.. there were some crying, I think.. kinda sad la.. so fast end..

thats about it for now ler.. all i can say is that I had a great time, and next year, on the 16th of July.. I will be there.. always.. =)

Thanks to Haru-san and.. erm.. someone whose name very hard to rmb, for teaching our group how to Bon Odori dance.. domoarigato~! thanks to those who made it possible for me to go as well.. thanks..

Friday.. huh?

I used to like Friday's the most.. somehow now I kinda dread to it.. firstly, its a sign that an entire week had passed, another week closer to SPM.. Another thing is my Chinese tuition.. ahh, somehow I dread all tuitions, but usually when I get started, I'm fine.. but chinese is another thing.. I can never get the words right, and its not a matter of 'how much u study' them thing..

Anyway, I slept this afternoon and woke up feeling horribly groggy.. No wonder I've never slept in the afternoon before.. I dunno why I slept also, I was referring to some add maths ques and suddenly I found myself asleep..

IPOD~ Ahh.. kenot tahan adi.. I reli reli reli reli wanna get Ipod Shuffle 1 Gig.. especially when suddenly its 150 bucks cheaper than it was a month ago.. Whats most geram is that I know I shouldn't rush this, half a thousand bucks IS a LOT of money to ME.. I duno bout all of you all, but half a 650 bucks is heck a lot of moneY..

my dad was kinda *surprisingly* kind and supportive of me wanting to buy Ipod Shuffle.. I'd thought he go.. "Its your money," with a kinda gruntled tone whenever he's unsupportive of me buying something which is out of the category 'neccesity'. But I'm kinda glad he's kinda supportive.. cuz I reli wan this Ipod..

Studies.. I'm barely finishing homework these days, but i've sworn to finish them, every single one of them and never leave one out, and thats what I'm doing, even if it means staying up whole night.. (thankfully it had never resorted to that).. I try to do some amount of studying in school and I reli TrY to isolate myself from my frenz, or I can't study a damn thing..

What if.. Somehow, although I'm feeling quite up these days, that I've been talking to some people I never knew possible, that I'm making new frienz, that I held .. oh nevermind(this line was cut due to fear of security and privacy compromise) , I feel kinda.. I duno, how to describe it huh.. nvm ler for now..

I seriously, am, who I am today, because of a girl.. A person you would never expect, or even imagine her to be.. She taught me more than any book or teacher could teach and the most important thing of all.. I used to be reli (mayb I still am, dunno la.. ) reli reli reli annoying, and my attitude was damn teruk.. it was the worst.. I knew.. but I didn't care.. till form2.. then everything changed.. I was a changed person, and I owe it all to that girl.. who, I think, hates me till now.. Aikz.. =p I wanna say, thank you!!

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Bon Odori

Ouch, my leg hurts.. aching all over.. and this is cuz I'm so smart to walk home from school.. took nearly an hour, dammit.. ahh.. and before that I came back from JSKL, Japanese School of Kuala Lumpur, from a Bon odori practice, and it was reaaaallly fun~!! fun fun fun fun fun ..haha.. and there's gonna be more this saturday..

Speaking of this saturday, I reli wonder whY the EST workshop is held on this saturdays of all saturdays.. I don't give a damn whether its compulsary or not, I'm going cuz I think its going to be a good workshop for the first time cuz we got no teachers on EST.. So, the workshop is from 9.30 till 12, and then we go home for 4 hours, and then I gotta get back to school by 4.30 to get the school transport to the Bon odori festival.. and oh, any of you who want to go are welcome to, this saturday at matshi..matshu.. ahh the stadium we had for our sports day from 7 till 9.30..

Even though I said that I'll get Ipod Shuffle 1GB, I definately dun have the money currenlty.. and besides, since prices had drop recently, mayb i'll cross my fingers and hope it'll drop more.. either way, I'll try to get it by August.. Till then.. Sob..

Security's been compromised.. I have a great suspicion that somehow my dad knows of this blog.. while thats not a bad thing, it certainly isin't good either. That would mean I have to be more wary while typing anything here.. And this blog is very much like a diary.. A diary I don't fancy my parents to see.. In any case, I'll be more cautious for the time being..

Anyway, i'm hungry and i better go get a small bite before dinner..

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Lawy3rz, with aching soles..

Festive Festival..

Tuesdays,

Besides being given a BIG piece of mind from shanta today, there ain't much happening around.. life's like usual, sit in class, do work, eat, come back to class, do more work, then balik.. My entire life, or mayb everyone's life is revolving just that.. Its so boring, and thank goodness, thank goodness, that I'm doing something different tmr..

On the dark side, there's two hours of Wong.. I don't understand a damn thing he's teaching anymore, and I am going to study my own physics or I'm gonna fail.. all i remember of him is why is the sky BLUE?? and "planes" as well as rice with dishes...

I'm more or else almost done with my english essay, but for some reason, I'm not done yet.. Its reli now the piority homework, cuz Shanta's gonna give us another piece of her mind if we dun get it done.. Add maths' to be done by Friday.. and the rest? haha.. nvm..

So, I've decided to get the Ipod Shuffle, 1 GB, and I'm seriously started collecting money from different sources.. RM 650, its acceptable, and I can't wait to lay my lands on it.. The onli bad thing is that it relies on internal batteries, and uses USB ports to charge them, which means if there's no computer when I go on hols, I cant recharge the Ipod.. and the USB charger is priced at RM 180.. siao.. when the cover is charged at RM150... Its more or less ridiculous to pay 150 bucks for a piece of plastic, no matter how good that plastic might be.. *sigh*

Oh well, I gotta go finish up my essay, especially when my parents are at home right now.. This post was rather a simple and quick one.. kinda rushed..

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Notice: Seeking someone to take the bloody boring undang test wid me..

I've more or less decided to take some matters into my own hands.. One of them, for example, is my driving licence.. If I can find someone to take the lecture and the boring undang at some driving school, I'd take it.. Right now I don't know any driving schools or whether its good or not.. and I hear all these bribery cases where the instructor will fail u unless u pay him some money.. aikz.. susah~

and its not like I can't go myself, its just that it'd be better if a bunch of us go, so it won't be so boring and stuff.. Besides, I know nutz about what am I suppose to do.. Mayb after the coming third monthly test which is crap.. Damn near.. ahh, to hell with it..

Oh well, this is an announcement to anyone who wants to start doing their driving licence on one of these saturdays, I don't mind going for it.. Though I can predict by that time comes, I'm damn lazy or damn hardworking for exam... =D

Anyway, it's definately past what my dad calls my 'bed-time' but I'm very much determined to stay awake till midnite.. why? haha.. that's not for you to know.. =D Thought there's another hour more to go..

Seems like there's already been a few visitors, according to the stat counter at the bottom of this blog.. So, post something in the tagboard also ar... say hi or something..=D at least I know you're there.. tell me whatcha think bout the new layout of my blog and if there's any suggestions, I'm all ears for them..

IE, Internet Explorer definately have some problem with the sidebar boxes while Firefox don't.. and for some reason.. onli my computer got problem with the music playing.. still can't find out the problem.. but oh well, as long everyone else can hear, thats good enuf..

I think I better end this post before I get caught..

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Konserto Terakhir..

I just finished reading Konserto Terakhir, the form 5 novel in around 4 hours, and its quite a good, heart-touching story, even if many of you would disagree.. I haven't read any BM novels before, and this is my first.. It's not too bad, and it leaves an impression on the reader..

Anyway, my eyes hurt dah, from reading so much straight without break, I even skipped my usually chattin/game playing time just to read that novel.. In any case, for those who know me close, then you should know that I'm always sensitive and weak to most love stories/dramas/animes.. leaves me kinda thinking bout my own reality though I read it in a book, fictional or otherwise.

SPM shit is coming damn fast, and I'm doing my studies a bit more seriously this time.. but my lack of self will power to sit down and do work without falling asleep is still almost zero.. as well as my social or my love life.. zero..

The real situation about me right now, many do not know.. wait.. I don't think anyone knows.. and right now I'm debating with myself if I should really.. pick a path.. make a decision.. do an action.. something.. better than sitting idle and do NoThING!

Basically, I'm a human who seeks a nightelf archer but is forbidden and fail as the nightelf archer probably shot a hundred arrows thru me already.. =p Then, heartbroken, I seek another not-to bad looking human female who was actually a seawitch, but that seawitch turned into a grimm reaper half the time and will probably slice off anyone's head who tries to hit on her..

That seems to summed it all.. =D oh well, nothing else to blog for the time being..

-Lawy3rz

A new look..

At exactly 12.55pm on 9/7/05- I have published an entire new template with customized codes for my blog. Hence, whatcha seeing right now is the result of my eye-paining, finger aching coding.. =) this template was more complicated and longer to code than my previous one.. why? ahh.. dunno how to explain..

Oh well, this wud be a great change, I'm kinda bored with the old look of my blog.. gtg now

-Lawy3rz

Prologue..

Prologue:
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Breathing fast, he gripped his chest and felt blood. He fell to his knees, and coughed out blood..
shit.. it will not end this way.. His body was torn and slashed, bleeding and injured. He gave out a war cry and got back up on his feet. "The final battle is here..,"he muttered, and yet he knew, that his last breath will be taken here as well.

I will be victorious..He called upon his powers once more, and opened a glowing ring. It was bright blue and lighted the dark pathways of the grounds. And from the glowing ring, he drew a sword out with his might. The sword seems heavier.. His eyes glaced the surroundings; dark and ruined. Exhausted and numb with pain, he dashed, straight ahead with his sword in stance.. to the last battle..
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Sorri, I'm not too good at creative writing but I wrote this for fun.. forget it.. Anyway.. This post had been around for days saved as a draft.. so I decided its time I completed this post and publish it..

I've decided to change my blog template, meaning how it looks, and I'm in the middle of planning the codes for a new one.. I guess it'd take some time to get it completed, especially seeing how I've got plenty of homework to do..

I've got not much to type.. I've just return from the nightelf's birthday party.. and as I expected and feared, I felt like I came from Jupiter.. .. and I felt like I didn't understand Earth's languages.. I suppose many will understand what I just said, but to those that don't.. nevermind..