Some time..

Hahaha.. I seriously apologize to those who come here often and yet not find any updates in my blog.. I dun find much time to blog these days.. Just seem rather busy and yet somehow free.. Midnight on sunday.. Tmr a public holiday.. *thank god* for I still need every second I can find to work on my stupid, crappy, damned, shitty, helled ESL investigative study..

I just found out that looking at old photos will now be the last thing i'll ever do again in my life.. For those who keep reading regularly, or rather know me, u'd know that I can't stand looking at pics.. I just cant.. I feel.. so..nostalgic every time.. I have a pic of my entire class on my workin desk, and I feel like wanna cry everytime I look at it.. Hence, its now moved on a shelf.. XD

I thought it's best to at least make SOME post rather than none, so I apologize again if this post seemed rather short.. Perhaps I should make shorther more frequent posts than one looooong one that never seem to come often enuf..

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Lawy3rz

Heartsfelt,
Holding what seem to be eternity,
Silent smile, Silent tears,
What was first became the last,
What was impossible become true,
Or perhaps it was just a dream,
Distant, miracle, dream,
On the day,
I'll never forget,
And hopes that you'd not forget me,
In your paths for dreams,
Thats my only true wish,
For the elf of the night...

Lawy3rz

Its Tuesday and I'm bored..

Yea im posting this in the It lab now.. So lazy la.. nothing to do, after this got maths exam.. then this phee yang is telling me to study maths.. hahaha.. this post seriously dam lame.. anyway.. quite a number of things happened recently.. for one thing, my car got stolen.. yes, some *all the swearing words in the world ever made* guy stole my car.. bloody hell... now i got no car to drive around.. sheesh..

this wek, there's the maths CT and the LAN final crap.. not like I care anyway... *out of topic* KYTH IS GAY!* okay, that aside, in 15 minutes in the maths CT and I havent got my proposal approved.. ah dam, gotta go for exam.. shit..

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Lawy3rz

A diminishing flame.

A diminishing flame.. I've been thinking of writing this post for several days now, and really, i got the time but my time management sucks.. It's reli kinda not possible to write everything out in a public blog.. lol.. things arent as safe as it used to be, but I'm sure many will understand.. Don't wanna keep whining here..

Been really reminding myself of what i expect of myself in the mid year.. I've done averagely fine in the third common test so far, but I know I can do better if I actually study.. I don't know whats up with me.. There aint much to blog bout now..

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Lawy3rz

Shattering Dreams..

I don't know why.. I've been really feeling dead recently.. dam tired.. lethargic.. a friend of mine said its lack of exercise, stayed in air-cond room too much, overwork and stress, and i think he's absolutely right.. there is a problem though.. I lack self-discipline.. I can't be focused on getting something done for very long.. On the way back from school, I'd say I'll go joggin in the evening but when the time comes, I conviniently got lazy.. Laziness.. That's my problem..

Same goes with everything else.. school work, assignments.. lazy lazy lazy.. I don't deny it.. It's someting I seriously have to overcome.. Time seem to pass so fast when I sit in front of the com screen... yet, when I do anything else.. it comes to a complete crawl.. which, in a way isnt a bad thing cuz I feel like I can do more work.. I can't sit down and do work straight for more than an hour.. That's bad.. I'll walk around, sit on the sofa or conveniently get in front of the screen..

I have a serious problem here.. which will really be the end of me unless I pull out a miracle and change.. Ah, to top off the laziness, or rather because of it, I've also gone *fatter* XD think gaining double digit kilos in a year or two.. It's a horror.. Because of it, I believe it causes lethargic-ness.. so hell, its one dam cycle.. just like econs.. *if you don't know what i mean, go study econs again, its one hell of a cycle*

So there, dumb, lazy, fat, and since fat = uglier, ugly.. :D Obviously I lack any form of confidence already, but I'll just have to get thru exams and get thru them well enuf, ignoring confidence..

Silent,
thoughts through thoughts,
feelings of the past,
revived in foolishness,
destruction of my own.

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Lawy3rz

SAM (Stress Allocation Matriculation) is...

Express Post! Parents are out for the few moments.. Taking this time to blog, especially to a certain few who has been noticing that my blog is dead for the past few weeks.. As my first two words says, i cant type much, goodness knows when they'll come back..

On my topic... SAM.. is self abuse! *quoted from yijun* SAM ............. sucks... SAM ..... can make you go mentally insane... to all those future ppl thinking of takin SAM.. u nid to make sure ur steadily and mentally SANE before taking SAM.. I was ambitious... probably too ambitious..overly.. I thought to myself.. sure I can manage college work, projects & assignments, mandarin classes, piano classes & exam, own entertainment time, helpin my parents out, all everything else.. sure no prob..

*four months later*

Gasp! Gasp! Help..... nid....... help........*falls dead and die*

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Lawy3rz