Tak boleh tidur..

I can't sleep.. Maybe I should have accepted eugene's dota call at 3am after all =.=" I actually went to bed early.. roll here roll there.. then woke up.. showered at 3.30am in the morning, and now back at my computer.. Eugene and Shirmin are going back to Melbourne tomorrow, and Kelvin has already gone back.. It makes me feel my time is about to come.. I got about like a month more to go before I return to Melbourne, but I feel conflicted now more than ever..

I always like the idea of being free and independent financially and time. Someone else might sneer and say maybe when I'm 55 and when im retired, but i disagree.. I hate the idea of being chained down by a job, by rent, by money essentially.

Right now, I hate leaving Malaysia. I'm finally home, back with my family, and I'm really comfortable where I am.. Its not so much me hating Melbourne, its more of having the heart of leave my family..

I'm just so damn conflicted... =/ I hate this, I just really hate this.

Logging off,
Lawy3rz