Envy, with a dead heart..

This makes the 4th consecutive posts by handphone.. I somehow adore the convenience of using my hand phone to blog.. Again, the biggest flaw is not being able to post pictures.. Perhaps its possible but i don't know how.. I'll dig around.. (in the end, i transfered to com and finished this post in the com so there is a pic)

After the Econs exam, it feels as though the exams are all over.. Accounts is seemed to be forgotten.. The clear evidence is everyone slacking and going out..

Even i went out today for Kyth's birthday.. Oh ya.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYFFU!! We went too see casino royale.. Not bad a show, wouldn't say its superb either.. Nice change from brousnan (if thats how u spell his name).. Those present were me, kyffu, derek, marvin, sher yan and crystal..

Disclaimer: the posts below this point is possible to be considered lame shyt.. Do not proceed for those who cannot take it..

Putting recent issues, or leisure, aside, I feel slightly envish.. why? perhaps I myself am not too sure of why.. As far as I can recall, my life has never been overly steady type, whether its life at home or life at school.. As far as I yearn for some excitement besides a bloody boring reptitive cycle, I do not seek arguments or disruptions.. makes you feel powerless..

Anyway, seems like I've drifted off topic.. Is there anyone out there, who, sees people by them and sometimes, are not so materialistic? I don't know.. My views have this have always, and probably always will be, very erm.. kuno.. ancient.. I believe liking someone, is the best feelings, even if it isnt mutual.. and if it does evolve to a 2-way thing, i believe that the most important elements that drive a relationship should be trust, understanding, compromising and feelings.. If one is compelled to always try to make her happy, then understanding never took place.. If one always have doubts and suspicion about his/her partner, then trust never took place.. If one always wants his/her partner to change, then compromising never took place..

Being to sit quietly together, and most of all, enjoy each other's company.. with the ability to read each other's mind and thoughts.. its a great feeling..

I'm not sure when I realize this, but my feelings have gone numb.. Its like this flame that once lit within me sorta died.. It's so quiet, lonely and dark without it.. I am, as it may seem, lost.. standing in the dark.. haha.. there I go again, me and my fav metaphor.. my world, was never complete, and probably will never be, even if I wanted it to be..

Ahh... *wakes up* been blaberring too much.. Its 1am, I wish ya good nitez..

Logging off,
Lawy3rz

And ahh.. P.s. - To those who noticed, the pictures on the right hand bar.. many of them have been removed.. actually they're going thru a renovation.. the long awaited new Yahoo! photos have arrived and I'm again, sorting out everything.. once its completed, I promise much more photos will be uploaded and shared.. till then, here's today's random photo..

Random photo #6 : Pangkor

Description: I thought this wud be appropriate since we ARE going to pangkor.. and staying as the same place I did in the picture above.. =)

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Lawy3rz