da after exam effect

Exams are now over... but da miserable effect is still there... guess this is da after-exam misery effects.. hope it wears off soon.. All of my fren..(i still hope dey are) r goin to genting tmr.. Somehow I'm feeling slightly miserable.. I definately hope it isint cuz I wasn't invited.. oh cut that out.. I'm starting to become a sensitive idiot.. but.. i dunno why.. mayb there's something to do with a gurL.. hope not.. I have my reasons.. and.. for the first time in my life.. I think.. I'm lonely.. I wanna someone to hold.. to hug.. to chat and laugh with.. i'm weaker than ever.. times like these are my dark ages...
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su n' yu..

exams exams

I havent bloged in days.. cuz of da stupid stupid exams lerr.. haiz... well all i can say is that its goin terribly wrong.. my parents yesterday scolded my brother for doing terribly.. i'm starting to wonder myself.. what if I flop? what if I dun meet their expectations.. haizz... terribly life.. life sucks!!

+maths

Add maths today was horrible.. It probably burned half my brain cells dead.. I just realize that my blogs are gettin shorter and shorter.. oh well.. its in the middle of the exams, I cant write very long either..Ahh!! exams!! Dun u juz get the feeling that you wanna sleep tonight and never wake up tommorrow? very 'sien'!
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Silence meets my lips,
as she silently walks by,
my hearts beats,
eyes stared from every corner,

She's just so cute,
something we all long to hold,
but none got anywhere near,
needless to say more..

Silent love is hurts the most,
Something so close yet so far,
beyond anything I can reach,
Its my silent love..

Let it be,
Its better than nothing,
silent love,
accidentally in love..

B.m yesterday was horrible, english today was boring, and add maths tomoro i'm gonna die.. well either way, life seems to end.. life's such a boring routine, a constant misery..

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a poem taken from my fren's blogg..

" ALone in this wide big world
Wishing u was here
Standing by looking out
Protecting me
Against the harsh winter nights

Somehow i forget
How delicate ur warm palm used to be
How i can breathe in your air
Feel secure..

I wana feel the same security
the same touch, the same depth
wana hear ur very own reassuring words
Want you to be around
But life haf to move on
With or without you
Somehow you only exist
As a mere existing dream

Life have to move on...
N i shall walk it through
A-l-o-n-e... "

ahhh IT!

had my first exam today.. I.T! it was surprisingly.. i repeat: SURPRISINGLY ok-- doable.. fine.. boleh tahan.. well.. cuz of that, our class morale has been greatly boost from the graveyard mood we've been having for weeks..


Tmr got B.M!! ahhH!!

exams!

i've changed da blog name from poems to life.. guess cuz i dun have that much ideas for poems all the time and it wouldnt be accurate to call it poems then..

well.. i'm having my final exams.. Hate exams.. wat exactly do they do? they kill innocent brain cells, that's for sure.. wonder wat my brain ever done to them..

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What I do in life bears no significance,
everything I do is never right either way,
never was there once I was right,
Every part of my life is crumbling apart,
Every single thing I used to treasure in life the most is now gone,
What is obligin me to hold on to life,
I do not know,
I have nothing but mere memories of a great past i once had,
I'm a lone soul once more, except this time..
I've been weakend.. I've failed in everything..
I've failed in life..
Can't stand it.. anymore..

meaningless tale

Nothing but time may heal,
though time isint enough,
Feelings felt, will never be known to others,
Misery and despair floods my soul.

Life's but a constant repetitive cycle,
a cycle of misery, misery and misery
A boring, dull, and predictable tale in every twist,
As I sat fiddling with facts of life
,showered in darkness,
so many things were just in doubt,
what is the reason for our mere existance?

I seek the answer..

first blogg

Its my first blog.. I cant relli keep diaries and this kinda stuff so i'll make my blog a poems storage center.. my poems arent very nize but its still my right to write it ritee?

oh well.. 13/10/04 - MY buffday!! happy..
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Life isint what it used to be,
neither are the people nor myself,
what's going on these days,
what can I do anymore?
since I lost the control of my life..

A loner by nature,
a loner by heart,
even the deepest loners have their limit,
I, as one, has been weakend in the name of love,
as I broke every principle I swore to keep..

What is to become of me?
I stand alone.. I lost everything..
I'll strive to gain my life back,
what was always rightfully mine,
with principles I'll keep this time..

As for now, I hope I can still stand,
before falling in darkness,
in a matter of time,
may a miracle happen,
that would change the course of my life,
now and ever.

life seems endless..

Its not relli a poem but i need to spill my heart..
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Life,
something so priceless & valuable,
the oldest since the beginning of time,
what is its purpose?
what is life?

Life,
those small little things makes life worth goin on,
worth moving on, takin steps up,
when all those have been taken from u,
its a cowards' choice,
but the main question is always this,
what is there left to live?

Life,
A loner never burdens others,
A loner never takes others for granted,
A loner must stand on his own,
Why am I weakend??
The pressure mounts, the misery adds,
the last moments of my life.. is gone..

Ever had the feeling so great,
just to shut ur eyes,
and never awaken..
all your problems are gone..
I have..