What if? that? this?

There are so many what-ifs in this world.. What if I had done that? Would the outcome be different? I myself, is any other human who has made that what-if? It has some relations to the feeling of regret and the hope to have done something different given the chance which only came once..

What if I had done this instead of that? What if I had said that instead of this? What if? Naturally my principles tells me never to regret anything, but there are some things done that cannot be undo forever and somethings past that cannot be brought back forever.. what of these things? Deep down, quietly and alone, I ask myself these questions.. What if?

Enough crapping of that... latest stuff.. hmm .. lemme see.. i guess the most eventful stuff recently is erm.. that I bought a RM1000 specs.. :D a lil mad I know, but somehow I think i must have tried the entire shop before choosing.. heck damn indecisive..

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Suddenly I'm the map maker..

It still wonders me how sitting alone for several minutes can make up think so much about your own life.. Right now I'm in The Web in Taylors where the internet speed can match a snail mail.. The exams are coming, and so is the end of college life.. With the mark of exams approaching, the end is with it as well..

I'm a little torn, and broken into several pieces, all where my mind wants to go.. Should I be afraid to try new things or should I be more daring at times like this? I'm a little very lost and hope to find a map to map out my life.. then there's the big decision I have to make that decides my life for the year after this.. It sucks..really..

The map I found is a blank one and a pen lies in my hands.. Where do I head?

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A new browser on the block... so they say..

Once I blogged about Firefox and Opera and my preference.. Then came out an article on InTech that there was this new browser on the block, its called Flock.. So I tried this browser..

The first thing you realize is that it looks exactly like firefox.. then wait, with closer looker, it is firefox engine, just a little modified there and here, and the things that I like they removed.. But they have extra features like picture and blogging advance features which I really like.. They can link with photobucket and see your pictures while surfin da net.. and they are in this sidebar where you can drag and drop into just about anywhere.. attachments, forums, e.g... dam cool.. then there's the blogging features.. which I'm using now to blog this post.. can blog anywhere anytime and combined with the pictures feature makes it very easy to blog with pics..

Anyhow, here's the screenshot! Try it and see if you like it.. There's only one downside, many extensions and themes available in firefox are not yet available in Flock.. although they're practically the same.. note the word yet.. Rating for flock: 8/10 ... (Rating for firefox 9.5/10)

Click on the images for larger versions.. Final verdict, its a little disappointing cuz its just the same engine as firefox..

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A merging or splitting personality?

I mentioned before, once, that I had some personality problems.. Kinda like a dual identity, and no one knows the other.. It's still around, definately, but the bigger question is, is it merging into one, or splitting even bigger now? I had a lil attitude change.. Lets see.. I'm not even sure how to describe it myself.. I'm a little more confident, a bit more free to speak my mind.. but overall im the same person..

This post has been actually delayed several times thanks to my stupid half wacko keyboard which cannot types the letter b, n, left ctrl, all the arrows, ?, 4,5,6,7, +, - ...

During that delay, I actually found the answer to this post, and thus, I'm combining it into here.. A little more deep in thought I've been recently, and I conclude that my own personality has widened.. I'm that but not that.. I'm this but not this.. I'm starting to become an unstable element in the periodic table.. Need to find my own ways.. fast.. before I go insane..

To which is better, I cannot say. But to which I enjoy being is only one.. Enjoy being doesn't make the other one not a part of me.. perhaps I should start naming the other guy? =)

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Saturday of all saturdays..

Usually my life takes a repetitive cycle.. a week of my life involves 5 days of going to college learning stuff, 1 day (saturday) involves sleeping in late, playing games, reading books and lying around at home and the last day involves going out with parents.. every week was the same, but this saturday is definately the most eventful and tiring at the same time of all year..

Had suyan's birthday party from 11 till 6.30.. that mainly somehow involves walking.. and more walking.. and more more more walking.. :) then went straight home and out again for Bon Odori 06'.. The first thing I noticed was that how their shirts this year was nicer than last year's one.. dam!!! not fair.. i like da shirt XD XD..

As for the dilemma I mentioned earlier, I somehow managed to solve it by.... jumping from group to group XD XD... obviously a tiring thing, but managed it somehow.. haha.. dam fun.. the turnout this year was obviously larger than last year, and more ppl I know this year is going.. and since I came as a spectator this year and not a performer, so I kinda got lotz more free time and relax to walk around and do anything.. Oh yaa, parents tagged along to, quite unexpectedly =p

On my feet from 9am till 10pm today, lol, definately the most tiring day of all, but also the most fun day I've had in soooooooooooo long.. All in all, it was a day of rememberence (if thats even a word) ...

Pics of Bon Odori 06!

thats me on the right.. and the girl is my sis.. well sort of :)


Friends I've known in a long time.. long long time...

and before the two donkeys/monkeys protests, here are their pics..

Lastly, u get to see their shirt designs.. AND those ppl are guest performers from SRIKL, just like last year.. but this time they got a headband and a nicer shirt.. not fair!! those includes wendy and irene, only the two I know.. or noticed.. XD

Thats bout it for today, its been a great day

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Dilemmas.. one after another..

I'm in a dilemma.. okay, many dilemmas.. many many many.. and may I start of with my stupid keyboard not being able to press the letters b, n, and the left arrow is one of the most annoying crappy dilemmas.. ok, mayb u cant consider that as a dilemma but that is definately dam friggin annoying.. anyway, on to the other dilemmas..

Bon Odori is this sat, and for all those ppl who doesnt know what it is, it is a japanese festival, only that this is held in Msia.. Its on July 15th, 2006, Its in the evening to night..Ah, and there are loads of Japanese food, sake, beer and the sort.. The main event is dancing, and mind you, its japanese traditional dancing and not western dancing.. no hip hop and such ya! But that is also another dilemma.. Too few friends from too many different groups are going.. I cant split myself and I gotta choose a group to go with.. Lets see.. several gals from my class are going, several friends I havent seen in some time.. sisters to be more accurate (ya they're all gals).. :D then there's the srikl group.. consisting of alfred farmin (& maybe YK).. so, unless some scientist devise a method to split me into 3 this saturday, this is a dilemma for me.. Usually I would either go with either my classmates or my outside friends but.. ah, there's a but.. but wat? i'll leave u all to guess that, it shudn't be too hard.. just think of who's left and why is that a 'but'... XD

Ah, further dilemmas all land on this saturday. of cuz, I thank shi-anne for her invitation. The bigger problem lies behind it, and it is a problem that comes yearly... lol, I shall not go into too detail..

Something is but is not bothering me.. I duno why.. Its like half the time, there is, but then the other half, there isn't.. i know im not making any sense.. nvm... I'm pretty sure with a 95 % Confidence Interval that the 'something' bothering me is the Bon Odori group issue. In other words, null hypothesis is who to follow is bothering me, and alternative hypothesis is that it is not. Thus, Z does not lie within the rejection region, and the null hypothesis is accepted..XD XD sorry la.. been doing nothing but these maths questions the entire week long..

I ask myself, why am I afraid? Am I afraid? of what? and why? I'm becoming a changed person my friends, no longer the guy whom I used to be.. everyone and all my friends except you have accepted that.. In a way, I'm passing it on to you, but you should be able to see it, my friend, and the best for both of us. *You* here refers to a guy friend whom I've known for years, just to debunk all those speculators here who speculate more than the share market..

Ah, and to Kyth/Sze Vien/P. Yang who has obtained my blog yesterday, don't keep quiet and just read.. post some comments or at the tagboard ya.. ur probably there..

OHHHHH waittt.. I nearly forgot..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SUYAN!

Lol I so happened to blog on your birthday.. Happy birthday..

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One last thing, Eugene Heng created this forum and so here I am helping to promote this forum.. Its the fastest growing forum I've ever seen, so, check it out.. Lotz of Srikl ppl there, including Jian the doggy, and Baboon.. http://www.absoluterage.com/forum/

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Temperamental

After several years have I found the right word to describe a particular person several years back. Of course, he/she would be different now, living different lives and doing different things than before. The world is changing fast and leaving me behind..

I havent blog in some time, I apologize.. Things have been hectic and stressful.. and as if things in college werent bad enuf, things at home aren't or havent been smooth either.. its nothing but sighs..

there isn't particularly anything to blog about my boring life so this post will end here..

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