Because I dont know..

You know what would REALLY REALLY make my year a totally totally brighter year?? Monash making an error in assessing my transfer and actually lets me transfer immediately. Yep thats what I'm trying to do. I totally found something.. some clause I had never noticed b4, no one has ever adviced me b4, and probably they themselves dont know exist.. Now.. I'm so going to barge into the faculty tmr and cross all my fingers and toes!!!!

I'll be a happier happier person once all this is BEHIND me!!!!! and I suspect the faculty will be too, seeing how much trouble I've given them.. Anyway, tmr... hope they're working.. =.="

Anyway, I.. havent been feelin too well recently.. mayb its this uni crap problem, mayb its the lack of ppl, mayb its being in melb after a disaster year.. I have no idea.. I really. want. this. to. be. over. and. done. with.

I want to turn back time. I always do.. But I never can.. The spirit of us being in Melbourne is not the same anymore, it is broken, it is different.. The people, are no longer here, the spirit is no longer here.. it is sad, "sien" feeling, and I've lost the spirit to go out also.. Turn back time, please.. Our parents don't understand tat even us, our time is running up.. We will never be the same.. Never.. once we crossed the line..

All we have left is memories, and crumbs of a great past.. And everywhere we go and everything we do, we are forever haunted by them.. of how it used to be, of what things we did, of the company we had, of the laughter we enjoyed, of everything..

Random Picture: Eskdale Rd

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One chance, one life..

"RESET RESET!" would probably be words uttered in a game, but in life there isnt such a thing, no matter how much i'll wish for it.. We're all probably given just one miserable chance in this one life, and as much as regret goes, time does not reverse itself for no man.

Many have said it is not how high a man can fly but rather how he picks himself up from the floor after falling that is used to judge his determination.. Well I think i've fallen pretty hard to the ground face downwards, and now I'm trying to pick myself up, pecking at the crumbs of what I could have acheieved but did not..

Filled with regrets and shrugging off the self-pity, I have only myself to blame for my mistakes, for my choices, and a rough long road ahead to make it right again. It may never even be right again..

I am certainly greatful for a friend who have, knowingly or unknowingly, helping me through this alot alot more than she probably realize herself, I am thankful for having you as my friend, so.. thank you ;)

Now, as even now the mistakes of the past still haunts me now, I have much redemption to do..

Random Picture: Peiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Weeennnnnnnn looks so innocent here..

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Why things are never same twice..

Back in melbourne, the same feelings never arise twice.. the initial excitement, the initial everythin from openin a bank account to meetin new friends and a start of a new year, to having a fantastic fun group of friends both from high school and newly met ones here in melb..

Now, nothing is the same, nothing is ever the same twice.. the group of ppl dubbed caulfield hse ppl are now all scattered all around the world, and melbourne, the feeling isnt there anymore.. to get together, to celebrate birthdays, to just hang out anymore.. the community feelin is gone.. I remembered just hanging out at their lounge, watchin tv, ppl like seow hui, huiping, oscar, atul, e-thing, james, shanyi, all once very memorable.. drinking games.. sigh..

Ok im just ramblin about nonsense now.. Enrolment problems!! Allocate opens and I only have 3 units enrolled! grrr monash grr zzzz..

Ok nid to sleep..

random pic: randomly nothing

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Chilling like the melbourne ppl do..

Yeah back in melbourne and not quite excited about it.. Seems like only the first time has that excitement feeling.. Well the first thing obviously was to clean up a unsused room for 3 months.. MY GOD i left a pack of half eaten doritos on the table which i MISSED when i was checkin specifically for things like that, and my table was full with ants omg that was a hellish cleanup.. >.<

Besides that I said I wanted to totally revamp my room to mark a new start and a 2nd chance but it seems like i've gotten lazy and just lazily accepted the fact that the current arrangement is best. =.=" mayb a spring clean only.. oh well..

The 2nd thing was to satisfy a sudden cravin from the plane to have bubble tea so I made the usual gang all go have bubble tea but it wasnt wat i was lookin for tho T.T

After grabbing fake "buble tea" we went to fed square and chill~ XD love it cuz d weather was fantastic.. chit chat n catchin up.. since uni hasnt started as well..

Then went shoppin at safeway n big w n laguna wid su and then on the way back bumped again into kheewei, mush, and audrey who didnt managed to watch their movie n drag me to go makan grilld with them.. XD

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Good Advice

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, t heir conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

FIVE. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN! .. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. W hen you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY- ONE. Spend some time alone


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The end of days..

It seems at the end of every year, or perhaps at the very start, I have these sort of emo-seemingly repetitive posts.. The end of life as we know it.. Ok it isnt as dramatic as that, but in a way it is true. The very end of student life is here in a year.. high school mates, college mates, I just wonder how many of us will bother to keep in touch, how many of us will be together after the end of uni.. No more 'semester breaks' and 3 month long holiday.. All we get is crappy annual leave which that is if u work 9-5 jobs.

Speaking of 9-5 jobs, it sucks. like shit. Whoever wants to study so hard to come out and do 9-5 shitty jobs. unless u have no choice of course.. Now I think most of us dont have that choice. As for me, I want to get a PR in aus AND cover back uni fees AND save up to build up investment capital which means I probably have no damn choice also.

Accounting sucks. I don't know how people call it to be what makes the world go round. Auditing is worse, and for the record, quite a meaningless profession to exist in the first place without government regulation mandating audit. Yet so many of these "frauds" appear anyway simply because our current concept of accounting and audit is all nonsense.

Ok i'm bias, probably, but frustrated that I dont believe in what I'm about to do just in 1 year time. Yet, I doubt I have the choice to go elsewhere and do other things, at least not yet, and at least for 5 years probably. sucks. You can force someone to do something but never to believe in what they do.

Enuf ranting =.="

I am *determined eyes here* going to make this year 2009 a meaningful fantastic year. like for real. enuf screwing around, enuf of half past six stupid exam results, enuf of uni complications and enuf of alot of other nonsense. Basketball in melb anyone? Better message me b4 i leave u out ;)

I'm about to leave for melb back tmr and I'm feelin weird.. just feelin sucky. no other explaination. use your own imagination.

*oh* and yes i'll try to update this blog with more rubbish rants from now on.. yes i know u've heard that b4...

Random image: UR DIRTY MIND.. XD

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Titlesless post

One of those times I've run out of titles of my post and this post is practically about nothing cuz nothing's been happening..

I've finished intern on the 4th of Feb and since then I've been doing nothing nothing nothing! ok fine. occasional family dinners and friend lunch outings.. Nothing much else has happened since..

I just realized I have enuf contacts and solution to last for easily 2 years =.=" The salesgirl got to me. I bought 6 months worth of colour contacts with 6 diff colours today WTF.... Besides the fact I know I'll look monstrous and scare the living daylight out of everyone I'm also curious how I'd look in them.. So those of u in melb be prepared to get er... scared.. that didnt come out right nvm.. I blame her I blame her whose name starts with N and ends with E... XD

Anyway I'll be flyin back to melb soon and not too sure if i'm happy or sad.. =.=" Obviously sad cuz i'll be leavin my family behind (again) but perhaps I enjoy Melb lifestyle? But then again this year is going to be a serious year with alot of redemption on errs made last year and many more. I'll stop just talkin and am reli serious about many things, studies for instance, and losing weight, of course ;) Hate to go shoppin to have to buy sizes that start with X and ends with L.

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End of holidays!

Ok i havent been bloggin much. pardon me pardon me =.="

Anyway there hasnt been much to blog *lazy*.. EH i'm organizing basketball in melbourne!!!!!!!! whos's interested msg me ya!!!!!!!! XD

being lazy..

Lazy to post, so here's a post with just pictures of recent happenings this week!

There's our usual annual family (picture incomplete - dad's taking d pic) reunion dinner at Ipoh! Mahjong + Angpaus + Movies!

 

Then obviously relax by Pangkor!! very syok n relaxing holiday! and yes thats my feet :)

Then there's mom's side CNY family dinner, with plenty and various kinds of booze..

That pretty much wraps up my week..

*being lazy already*

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