Happy Chinese New Year 2006!

Happy Chinese New Year 2006 to all the chinese ppl out there! and happy hols to those who aren't.. =D i know i havent been updatin my blog lately.. i've been busy, everyone's been busy.. work work work.. think 50 kg dumbells on both shoulders.. sigh...

i dun think this will be a long post, just wanna wish (again),

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope i win in mahjong.. XD

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My life..

Haih haih, college's a new start they say... plenty of homework, so much things to do...... but still as lazy as ever.. oh well.. anyway, i duno y, its like early form 3 all over again.. I keep more to myself than ever... and probably my reasons are also as simple as ever..

Every time i spent too much time with the guys side, I tend to lose.. being serious.. i just become not serious and in the end, something bad will happen.. its always like this..

And the when i spent too much time with gals, i end up liking them, the best path of destruction..

I like being this part of me once in such a long time.. I'm definately very cautious of my words and actions.. in a room filled with strangers..

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College Life version 2

College Life isnt as glamorous as portraited.. Fees are already expensive, then books also is one heavy burden.. after books, then there are teachers hu somehow wudnt teach something u dun understand.. LIKE maths..My teacher, gives the first line of the question, practically copying back the question and say,'just simplify it and u'll get the answer'.. doesnt bother to finish it.. if you asked any more than that, he'd turn around with a sneer look and say, "you don't know how to simplify?" If we had no problems, we don't need u to explain it in the first place lah, not like u actually did anyway.. sheesh..

Then there's lunch.. two third of my pocket money a month goes to food alone since college started.. expensive betul... and then when i can drive, there's parking problems.. and compound ticket problems.. geram lah...

I dun think i'll be so geram now if wasnt for my maths.. gila and incompetant..give damn alot of homework to be finished by the next day.. i'm fallin behind dah.. geram man, 2nd week of college only..

Oh well, my class currently comprises of 19 gals and 10 guyz... =)

Sigh, anyway i got to get back to work, been slackin off the whole day..

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Whats the point of loving someone that will never feel the same in return?

The other side of me..

I kinda noticed that there are two sides to me.. or perhaps two personalities.. and neither can show together.. Both are them are me, no doubt, but its just the how of me.. Honestly, this is my blog.. I don't blog for anyone or anything but myself.. I filled this page with rants, ramblings, complaints, crap, nonsence, watever lah.. Don't judge me from what you read, because this are my words & thoughts that I share with no one but my blog..

My parents know neither sides of me, while my friends know one side.. The last side is never known..The part of me who is better off alone, standing sturdy without anyone.. But the world says you have to communicate and have a lot of 'group work' to survive in work life, so, the other side of me is more or less forced.. If given a total freedom of choice, I would prefer not to have two sides.. Its as though one side of me is fake and the other, real..

One side of me follows what other people wants and expects of me.. Do that, do this.. Nothing about myself.. Its all about what other people want from me.. Its like a obligation to them, no questions asked, no complaints grumbled.. Do blindly what is told, because its their instructions, and as older people like to say, Do as you are told, follow the goddam instructions and just follow it directly! You're not allowed to think, just do as instructed.. You're a damn robot, a servant to them.. and they couldn't care less about what you think or feel of the matter.. They sit and wait for you to make a glitch of hand, a mistake, and the moment you do, they pounce on you like lions waiting for the right moment to pounce on their prey.. A single mistake and you're screwed up.. The so called learn from mistakes don't exist anywhere but in yourself.. And this is why so few people take the risk of anything these days..

The other side of me, is more or less the opposite.. Everything about it is myself.. The silent lone side of me.. The perspective of the world is totally different.. But I'm not going to elaborate on this.. It'll become a lil .. erm.. disturbing.. nanti I'll be labelled as mentally problematic person.. XD

Hence, two sides of me has appeared.. with one only appearing when I'm alone, and the other when I'm with people.. A hidden personality in another..

On a lil cheerful note, there are a few ppl from my old school i noticed today, but yet to actually say anything to them today.. they are.. (even if i mentioned the names i dun suppose anyone wud reli know them... ) vicki, puiyee and julia.. sorry ya julia.. i terlupa your nama dah.. so long dah.. Hope to meet with them sometime I see them again.. oh well,

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A new beginning with a taste of the past, a foolish feeling felt towards a stranger...

Copied.. and pasted my MSN nick right into the title.... haha... malas wanna think of one.. but most of my nicks, if not all, have meanings.. They show and reflect my life and how I feel of it.. This is no different.. A new beginning, with a taste of the past, a foolish feeling felt towards a stranger.. Its college.. something totally new, thrown in a class of total silent strangers, who, thankfully started to speak up a little bit.. no one got nominated at all for class rep, in the end our class teacher randomly chose one.. the total silence thing is still there, just better.. haha..

A taste of the past refers to the srikl ppl i know and still see around from time to time, it aint all that far, but yet in time we will become strangers.. forgettin each other and the time we spent together b4..

a foolish feeling felt towards a stranger.. now this line has more or less two meanings.. strangers can refer to old friends whom i no longer know closely anymore.. or a plain stranger.. in my case, its both.. A foolish feeling felt towards two strangers, with neither different than the other..

Anyway, saw kelly, sylvan, polar express, and a big bunch of other srikl ppl today, CAL orientation day..its been some time.. Kelly.. dyed her hair, and seriously, I think she's seriously pretty.. But sigh.. time and time again prove always right and kelly shud stay out of this blog....

I need a new name for the -familiar-lookin-girl- in my class.. i cant rmb her name though.. some long chinese hard to rmb name.. i barely still know anyone around my class.. oh well, thats it..

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Love isn't love when it isn't mutual..

Unsolvable Maths Questions - U.M.Q

Wat is the sqare root of negative 1... geram betul.. 2nd day of SAM got maths homework which I cannot even come close to solving.. thank god tomorrow I have two hours of break before Maths so I better go find someone to help me solve..

Anyway, nothing really happened today, except for my 2nd driving class.. near pro dah.. normal driving, parking and 3 point turn can zzz dah.. just the hill slope.. out of 10 tries, i could get 8 without a problem.. the other two i panicked then reversed pulak... aikz!

I've been thinking.. watever happened to that girl I knew in form 2.. It has only been 4 years.. In 4 years, I have lost complete contact with her.. what about srikl ppl? how long b4 we lose contact? Sigh.. Pictures have gone too painful to look at, the few pics of beta, and all my years in Srikl, have become too painful to look at.. I resolve to not looking at my past anymore..

I shud be sleeping soon, College starting at 8 is such a hassle..

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Love and the consequences of loving someone isn't what it used to be.....

College Life

Its the 2nd day of college.. Yipee.. I've got english assignment on the first day, Maths homework and accounts quiz on the 2nd.. Soo fun.. Besides homework, apparently my class has this tendency to erm.. be very silent most of the time.. consisting of 16 girls and 10 boys today, excluding those who are absent and including me in the 10 boys, my class is the most silent class i've ever been to..

-Teacher walks in to class-
Teacher: Good morning..
Class: *total absolute silence and zero movement*
Teacher: Okay so this and this bla bla.. Everyone understand? Any questions?
Class: *total absolute silence and zero movement*
Teacher: Okay, then this and this, do you want me to teach this today or tomorrow?
Class: *total absolute silence and zero movement*
Teacher: Did you do the assignment given out yesterday?
Class: *total absolute silence and zero movement*
Teacher: What's it up with u ppl?
Class: *total absolute silence and zero movement*
Teacher: Its either u've done it and you'll go 'yessssss' or u have not and u'll go 'noooo'.. Which one is it?
Class: *total absolute silence and zero movement*
Teacher: How bout u girl?
Girl: *Stares blankly at teacher*
Teacher: arghhH!! *continues on to givin a lecture on how being erm.. more talkative will help u in your university life*
-Time is up-
Teacher: thank you class, see you tomorrow
Class: *Slight shuffling of bags and chairs, otherwise, silence*

I think I've passed my 5 word barrier mark today.. so official yay, i know two guyz.. haha.. my class ah.. very.. erm.. slow to warm up.. more or less everyone's a stranger to another.. very quiet strangers.. our class is also one of those fewer classes where there are more girls than guyz.. hahaha..

There's this girl.. in my college class.. who looks very very very much like someone I havent met since form 2 in my old school.. someone I used to like to disturb... someone I missed.. but I'm more or less sure she's not the one after I heard her name and that she doesnt live nearby in Subang.. so unless she changed her name and moved from subang.. haha.. the odds are that she isnt the same girl.. a total stranger..

I know I haven't been updatin my blog often anymore.. and that also the stuff I blog about can put anyone to sleep.. but hey, its my blog and my life.. It's also true I blog less cuz I cant blog as freely as I used to.. It's also true that as much as I wud like to blog everything out, chances are someone can't stand it.. haizz.. nvm..

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For me to love someone is a blessing to me and a curse to that person..

Major Breakdown....

My entire blog template aka source code has been screwed up.. by wat? i dun know.. it just happened.. stupid goddam thing, made me do hell lot of work... the last backup of my codes i made was in september last year.. there were lotz of changes made during that period.. ahh, who cares, i think i got it back up the way it was before the codes got screwed up.. but if anythin is wrong, plz leave a comment or a few words by the chatterbox..

Thanks.. and oh btw, check out..... http://www.taylorsforum.uk.tt

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Everything's new..

First day of college, felt so nice in a way that we had lotz of free time to do our stuff.. though the lecture in the MPH wall was more or less boring.. for those takin SAM in taylors, today was the orientation day.. where about 1000 students are packed into small classrooms to get the time table and stuff...

my timetable alone is weird... funny break times, which barely clashes with my frenz.. hard to go out... oh well... my class also the highest floor... aiyo... lazy to walk up everyday..

Nothing really that interesting to blog about.. blogging out of obligation.... XD

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Happy New Year 2006!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006! Another year has passed quite close to a blink of an eye.. Yeah I know i havent been updating as often as i used to but I think that will change soon.. I cant post as freely as I used to anyway..Its near 2 Am.. again, but I just wanna blog about this whole new year that has arrived..

I don't think I have the time to actually write down everything that has happened to the past one year, not like I remember them anyway.. All I can say is that 2005 has been an eventful year..

Next year, many of us are going taylors, and if not taylors, then sunway.. we'll still be quite close in touch... so it wasnt that bad of a dramatic end of the school thing as I thought.. oh well.. Betas, u all do know that the FORUM is still alive.. go there and post laaa!

In the end, a new year is here, and I wish everyone, a HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006, Best of luck and wishes, take care always..

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