Misunderstanding..

Aihh.. Of all things I had to have a dumb misunderstanding with my mom, its my Creative.. I bought it but haven't collected it yet.. My mom said she'd collect it on Monday, but didn't.. I knew she was busy, so I never bugged her or anything.. Tomorrow would be a holiday, so I thought I can go get it myself so that she don't have to, after all, it is my stuff, she shouldn't be taking it for me.. I thought that I would just finish up my own stuff and not bother other people to do them for me..

But for some apparent reason, my mom blew.. she got mad, saying buying my creative was a waste of money and time, and stuff like that.. I meant, I was telling her I will take myself on good will, so that she doesn't have to waste her time.. and I reli dun know why she got so angry.. even now.. I duN know how long she wud be angry at me, but I sure hope it doesn't last..

Anyway, I need more sleep these days.. I've been feeling more and more tired as each passing day even though its just been two days after the holidays.. Everyone's been packed and packed with more and more homework.. Forget studyin, I'm doing my best to finish up my work.. But I'm sure both my parents won't see it that way.. *sigh*..

Even when I'm writing this post, the time constraint is tight.. Even though I do spend time relaxing and stuff, its just that, everyone seem to think that all a form 5 student should do is sit at this table, open his books, and bury his nose into them for hours till the wee hours of the morning.. as though we lose our humanity due to something stupid called SPM..

I guess my spirits are actually quite high these days, despite all those work that has been piled upon us.. but earlier this afternoon, the misundestanding with my mom reli wears me down.. if there's one thing I cannot stand, it is a something like this.. If she can just suddenly call and tell me she understands my intentions and harbour no anger towards me, I'll be fine all over again.. But, I know that won't happen.. Seriously, frustrating..

I guess I reli have to get to work now..

Logging off,
Lawy3rz

Another saturday day..

A saturday.. earli morning got woken up by aircond service repairman.. kicked out of bed.. aihh.. was so comfortable.. Today I actualli continued some of my homework, i got piles of it, and I think i should be able to finish it by tomorrow, which is the last day before school reopens.. The main reason why i can't finish it by today is cuz i've been playin dota~!! ahh!! heck la, how am I gonna pass my exams..

Anyway, there isn't much going on, like any other holiday.. sleep, study a bit, do hw, play game, watch anime.. That more or less equals to nothin much to blog at the moment actualli..But i haven't blog in some time and I thought I shud update it..

Oh yeah, I bought my creative!! ^_^ but.. sadly its not with me yet.. Its supposed to come on Monday.. and I'm trying my best not to get my hopes up in case it doesnt come.. IF.. it doesn't come.. I go strangle the salesguy.. I paid for it dah.. =p lalala.. happy though..

Its actualli quite late, or early now, and i feel rather sleepy already.. so this post, short as it may be, ends here..nth special today...

Logging off,
Lawy3rz

Steamyx connection back up again..

whew.. I thought my modem burned out or rosak or something.. I couldn't connect to the internet and when I did, the speed was slower than a 56k modem.. but all is well now..

Anyway, just came back from Damai Laut, the day before yesterday.. For those who don't know, its near Pangkor.. Stayed at Swiss garden.. The hotel itself was quite nice, but.. BUT the food was horrible and they were so understaffed badly when I was there.. Basically, the management of that hotel was terrible..

I'm posting some pictures now.. Been wanting to post pictures from dinner with Daisuke until now.. and here they are..

- Dinner with Daisuke

- Swiss Garden Damai Laut

The last of everything..

The last of everything as we know it in life is the beginning of everything else that we don't.. Everyone's been saying about last that last this.. which is true.. Our last school exams, our last school holidays, our last year in school, our last that our last this.. Most of them are school related.. since it is our last year anyway..

This is d post i've been wanting to post for so long.. but never reli found time for it until now.. The last post of the nightelf..

And I admit, there are times, especially recently, when things have overwhelmed me.. it doesn't happen often, but it does happen.. So much memories, cherishable ones from the past.. and to think that those memories will never be able to be shared and re-lived once more after this year.. to think that it will forever remain crumbs of the past..

I guess this is the last post, and I should try to be more frank and direct.. Many things have happened since we first met, and many of them took a turn I never had expected.. I still remember when my first thoughts to myself were to be very cautious of u when i first met u.. Cautious I was and yet..

At this point of posting, I still can't bring myself to be totally honest.. I'm still afraid of mentioning too much.. The times with you around had been the greatest joy of my life.. Many don't know my past, but in form 2 I had a rather rough time for a short time.. dun jump to conclusions.. and to be honest, in form 3 I changed my ways.. At the beginning of the year, I meant to silent.. I sat in the back corner, and never had intentions to socialised one bit..

But then I was the bunch of 3 Alphas 2003 who had been great friends, and I mean everyone.. And Sylvan..In the beginning she was the last person I ever want to have feelings for.. She was one of the top student in class, bright, pretty, sarcastic, fun.. and heck, where was I? Placing 1st from the back, I lacked basic social skills, what more to harbour these feelings..

I ignored, I fought, I convinced myself that I will never harbour them.. When the end of the year came, I couldn't deny them anymore.. And when form 4 came, I knew that would be the end, no longer being classmates meant that keeping in touch wud be difficult.. In fact, I still have a card with me.. It is a Christmas card, and I wrote my best wishes to her.. But it was the only Christmas card I never sent out..

Form 4 came and pass, and as expected, I don't know if we were friends or just someone-who-looks-familiar that greet each other with a single word everytime we met kind of thing.. But nearing the end of 2004, something else happened.. I guess this'll be a little too much to write about in a public blog.. I'll keep it as general as possible.. What was that about? Until this very day, I don't know.. Was she feeling sympathetic? Was she just trying to cheer me up? (not that I was gloomy at that time also).. Whatever the reason was.. I didn't expect it.. but a thousand questions went through my thoughts.. Should I keep silent? Should I say something? Will I ever have this moment again? I treasured every second in that hour.. Maybe it was a dream, something my mind just made-up, I don't know..Don't jump to any stupid conclusions.. Let it be.. a sleeping memory..

The only other thing in form 4 would be Japan Nukata.. I kinda wished that i'd spend more time with friends there, thats all.. Despite that, it was still the most memorable holiday I've ever been on.. and to think that would be the last school trip I'll ever go.. Brings memoirs back to the heart..

Form 5 came then.. it seemed worse than form 4.. and it was worse.. well until recently ler.. Many things have happened between us.. but I hope that no matter what happens, we'd be able to stay friends at least.. Almost every post of mine had her inside.. I wrote of it as of how I felt at that time.. honestly and true to my feelings and my thoughts.. But this will be the last post.. Just simply because so damn many ppl know who sylvan is, I can't write out everything I want to write.. This post will end here.. Even if I'm forgotten now or later, let it be known now that I will never forget you, ever.. for you have brought about the biggest change in my life, without knowing it myself, and the greatest joys I had in my schooling years.. For those still reading up to here, go ahead, laugh, sneer, cough, joke, insult, watever.. I wrote my thoughts and feeling out, and I couldn't give a damn about any bad comments u might have..

Logging off,
Lawy3rz
-The last of everything in life as we know it is just the beginning of everything else we don't..-

Later..

All right I admit I haven't been updating my blog for some time.. but I've been busy ler.. I just came back from dinner with Daisuke, my Japan host from last year's Nukata Junior High School exchange program.. It wasn't as bad as I thought and I quite enjoyed it, having not seen him for over a year..

I practically went out the entire day today, came back from school and then out to KLCC to meet with Daisuke.. ahh tired tired tired.. The mock exaM I wanted to do, I haven't found time to reli do yet.. Besides that.. there ain't much happening..

Actually, the reason why I haven't updated my blog for such a long time is that because I wanted to blog a special last post of a certain nightelf.. Though, I haven't found time to start that.. So, I'll still do that, but probably later..

I'm still rather dead out today, so I'm not gonna post much.. maybe later, maybe tomorrow, whatever ar..

Logging off,
Lawy3rz

A silent smile..

I guess it would be inevitable, someone would sooner or later have told the nightelf's kingdom about this blog.. =p So, at first I kept hoping that it was merely my imagination, but realized that this blog had been leaked.. More or less quite hoping cuz the last time I checked, the nightelf's kingdom never had internet; magic maybe, not internet.. =p

Btw, if anyone had realize, my sidebar list of currently addicted anime has grown.. huge, dammit.. The last 4 days off school made me watch those anime's I've downloaded for months but never had time to watch them.. *aikz* Besides, these anime's only list down those ongoing and still releasing anime's wherelse I'm even watching some of those anime's that have finished.. gila ar.. how am I gonna pass my exam like this.. geram.. muz study more in school.. and oh, may I say, Ichigo 100% manga was REALI great!! =p

I've in the meantime, given up on buying my Creative MuVo due to Creative's dealers who are hopelessly useless.. Who the hell stock one model of Creative product and CALL themselves dealers.. assholes.. (sorry, becoming more vulgar again).. I'm FED UP.. and it came out in the papers the other day, that Creative was losing money cuz of their war with Ipod Shuffle, and i WONDER why.. wats the point of so many different kinds of products when the dealers don't have, or even heard of them!

Enuf of that.. geram geram geram, I've send an agitated e-mail to Creative just after I came back.. Hope they have fun reading it..

Anyway, some.. I wud say, weird, vibes have recently been coming from Quel thalas.. I believe some will understand, some won't.. but, as long u do, this wud be something great if u can keep it to urself.. and I'd never thought I'd say this, but, I'm dropping Sylvan out of this blog.. Dun ask why.. Thank you though..

Lawy3rz

A nostalgic past..

I somehow have this habit of going through old pictures and then regret that action later.. For those who know me, I am rather weak over such things, small as it may be.. From the pics when I was one of the editorial board photography members, pictures that I've taken in class, Japan 2004, Redang 2004.. There are just so many.. that reli brings back old memories.. happy, sad, but regardless of whatever those memories are, I will always feel amiss..

Those memories were once part of me, and that I am proud to have had them.. Memories that I'll cherish for my life..

At 17, now, SPM is all thats certain for every other student.. All our lives which we have taken comfort and security in will take a twist and some turns.. Basically, life will not be as it is now, classmates we have known since young for over 11 years of our schooling life, we might never see again, split around the world, if not the country, heading out very own paths and ways which will probably never cross again..

All I can say is, think back of your past times, think now in the present times, cherish the very last moments of friendships in school.. My life in secondary school has its twist as well.. For those who know, I began my form 1 in SMK USJ 4, and left in the middle of form 2, to SRIKL(again).. Form 1 (forget adi), Form 2 Kenanga + Form 2 Lambda, Form 3 Alpha, Form 4 and form 5 Beta..

With all my blabering, I reli dun have that right actualli.. Imagine, right now, you have a former classmate in the next class, meters away, in the same school, during the same schooling hours, and you have never spoken to her a long time.. What of after school? Will you speak to her? Thats me, really..

After a twist of events, Sylvan and I are rather supposedly friends, which never happened.. I mean, fine, I have nothing against her, nor am I avoiding her, and I think, i think, its vice versa.. But, I can safely say, I don't know her anymore.. much like everyone else who was a former classmate.. I don't think any of them took me as a real classmate though, I always got last in class, always sat in corners, adapted a silent principle which carried me to life this far..

As for Kelli, I'm dropping her, together with the 'new' person I was supposed to talk about, Madison, I found that the name wasn't reli suitable.. In Kelli's case, well she's pretty and all, but in all aspects, unapproachable.. So, I think this'll be the last time Kelli will appear here~..

Everyone's talking much about the prom, and I've overheard there and here, not reli that I purposely go and evesdrop though.. I, strongly doubt that i'm going this year.. I haven't bothered to check out the details at all, so I have no idea when is it, where is it and all those.. So, since i'm not going, there's nothing to blog about this year's prom.. besides.. .. nvm~..

Today alone I blog twice in two seperate post.. I guess thats enuf for today..

Logging off,
Lawy3rz

sheesh..

I'm more or less typing this post in anger and frustration.. And its reli all because of some stupid turn of events which I dun even know wat happened.. All i know is that my bro reli knows how to win my parents heart, and they go all so protective of him.. hmmph!

He got me into trouble, and hell he knows damn good how to manipulate the situation. Telling our parents that I'll slap him or bla bla bla.. So, that leaves me scolded and accused of being a damn bully towards him and that I keep picking on him for no reason.. *Yawn*.. I've heard this a thousand times, and usually I cool off enough before I could blog my feelings out..

Frankly speaking, I'm fed up.. really.. I had enough of how much my parents are so protective of my brother even though he's so much smarter and cunning that anyone knows him..

Even recently I had not had rows with him, we've been on more or less good terms, and suddenly he backstabs.. he knows how to scold me, and when I replied angrily, oh my mom will come along and protect him.. this is some shit..

I couldn't care less if it was involving only my relationship with my brother.. but he knows how to get my parents involved too, because of my mom who will protect him from my 'bully' all the time, my dad will also get involved.. and it suddenly becomes a family thing.. and out the blues from being on good terms with everyone, with no apparent reason, the whole family turn against me..

Once, twice, I've lost count how many times that'd happen already.. I would feel alienated from this world, as though I came from some distant planet, like I was some alien.. I grit my teeth and let it past, but enough is enough..

I don't care if my parents are reading this, they practically don't know anything bout my feelings behind the mask I show.. To them, I'm an arrogant, bossy, bullying son, who had put them thru hell and misery most of the time, and Aaron is the son who is kind, polite, helpful, and the 'angel' of the family.. and so thats how it will be until one side changes..

Logging off,
Lawy3rz

Creative Muvo 1GB

“Raise the emergency shields! And where are those alert fighters?! Get them out now!” the captain shouted his orders franticly.

The ship was being hit from unknown enemy attacks. It has been over 10 years since galactic peace was declared, and that the Earth Space Fleet had faced nothing but mere pirates all this while.

“Warning, starboard deck 2 hit, warning starboard deck 2 hit,” an artificial voice rang throughout the ship. As the alarm continued its sirens, the crew on board the ship was scrambling to their stations and fighters. Only moments earlier many of them were sleeping when the first shot came.

“Get me radar and visual stats on what the hell is shooting at us!”

An enemy ship that attack us unprovoked, an enemy ship that doesn’t appear on our long-range radar, an enemy that can fire continuously without recharging their weapons, an enemy that can pass through our shield modulations..

The captain thoughts went undisturbed despite the ship being under attack. He knew something was wrong, very wrong. This wasn’t just some mere pirates. These attackers were using technologies that even the Earth Space Fleet has yet to develop.

“Captain! I... oh god... I think you should see... see this sir..” a lieutenant on board the bridge cried out softly, as though he was unsure of what he was seeing.

“Bring it on screen!” As the main bridge screen sprang to life, the captain’s eyes widened, in horror, fear, and shock. The captain opened his mouth to give another order, but for the first time in his life, words had failed him. Words have failed to describe or explain what he was seeing right now. That expression was shared by all the officers on deck.

“Lieutenant… Turn us around... now! And get our engines to jump immediately! Send distress signals to Earth and…”

That was the last time Earth Space Fleet ever heard from the ship Nighthunter, again...
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OkaY i'm too free. =p but this post, is just to announce that I'm going to buy one of these three mp3 + flash drive all from Creative!! Here's da pics!

They are all three different models, and coming up first is the

Creative Muvo TX 1GB Creative Muvo TX FM 1GB

Creative Muvo USB 2.0

Caught off-guard

yayaaaa.... I was totally caught off-guard after so long.. All I can say is that, I dun think I'll blog too much bout certain topics already ler.. Its quite against wat I said last time.. but then was then and now is now, and in order to keep this blog and certain friendships actualli together.. i guess i dun have a choice..

Anyway, i'm more or less shocked at watever happened last night.. my parents let me drive home.. So Nize~! ahha.. Anyway.. I might be re-considering buying the Ipod shuffle.. As you might know, it uses an unchangeable internal battery.. which has a warranty for 2 years, I think, and after that, if it spoils, its gone.. Because wat my dad said was true..No matter how great a battery is, there is a lifespan, and when this lifespan is up, the battery is useless... So i guess I have to look around somemore, cuz i want an Mp3 and a thumbdrive in one, and pendrive (a brand name) has one, but I'm not sure of the price and their website onli says onli got 512MB the most, I want 1 GB.. In any case, i'm holding back much anger and frusfrations, cuz I mite not even buy Ipod shuffle in the first place, today..

Anyway, ppl's been asking bout Kelli, and I won't reveal her.. as I said, her's is a much more erm.. dangerous and sensitive topic, and the entire thing about her is on dangerous grounds.. So, she might be reli great, but thats that, and I'm not involved.. fullstop.. On to a certain nightelf, I'll probably blog less bout her from now onwards, for undisclosed reasons.. =p oh well.. nth much to say bout her anyway, these days..

Just came back from tuition, well EXTRA tuition.. for BM.. Tired and tired, and Its 8.30 pm and i'm not hungry.. (probably cuz i had a heavy teatime).. This wraps up this post for today, and one last thing.. one word.. which I'll blog bout .. her.. next time..

Madison

Logging off,
Lawy3rz

a day at home

Ponteng ponteng, as my mom wud say.. my parents are reli cool.. They let me skipped school when I told them I dun wanna go cuz i rather stay at home and study.. there, they have the ellocution thing the whole day today.. its not that i dun wanna go to support.. its just that trials are in 6 weeks, and the real thing in 71 days for me.. and the rest of the IT students.. and for your info, I did study today.. After this blogging, I'm gonna do some add maths before I go sleep..

After 3 weeks with practically no tuition, I had back my BM tuition today and i think there's another class on Sat as well.. I guess I reli have to tahan the extra classes cuz trials are near and I will need every lesson I can get for all the subjects.. mayb except moral.. haha..

Nth much else to blog about work today.. Moving on to other stuff.. So, many ppl's been asking bout kelli.. oh well, I keep in general, and that makes it almost impossible to guess the person.. not like I wud want u to guess anyway.. I use nickname for a reason.. and its not easy to find a decent name without stealing ppl's names..

Kelli huh.. I think i shud make this rather clear.. that I dun reli have that kind of feeling towards her.. all I've been saying is that she's attractive, fullstop.. and as I've mentioned before, I dun think I wud want to like her..

Logging off,
Lawy3rz

the burning sky..

I smelled burning smell yesterday in my study room and the first thing that came to my mind was that my com was overheating (I leave it on the whole day) and that something was burning in it.. but when I checked.. the temperature of my computer was well below the average temperature, let alone dangerous..

It wasn't until today I realize.. that the same burning smell had caused the haze.. The visibility in Subang now is terrible, not more than 500 m, i estimate.. The air smells of burning debris, and heat that are felt differently from the haze.. The smell and heat can seep through the air-cond filters and the windows.. why? there's nothing in the papers, yet, or online that I could find out the reason so far.. but, all i can say is that, the sky is burning..

I'm not going to school tmr.. why? cuz I dun wanna waste time in the hall but rather study up my subjects, the damned trials are just 6 weeks away.. I wanna take this trial damn serious.. Trinity college ppl came today, and to get into that, I cannot use my forecast results, what else Monash uni that I am trying, I repeat, trying, to aim into.. so I'm going to work and work damn hard..* (weekdays ahh =p)

Even I shouldn't be bloggin now.. oh well, to physics~!

Logging off,
Lawy3rz